26 April 1997
RI-841i 'My mother - regrettably, but true: a suppressive person'
from Ambassador for Mankind
Message # RI-841i for Internet
"At that time,
I wanted to take revenge on Pa
for Pa not giving me all the attention
I wanted to get from him
and
for not admiring me
as I wanted to be admired."
"I always wanted to have Pa all for myself,
and
I have wanted to prevent Pa from communicating,
not only to Koos, but to others as well."
'"Ma" Nolst Trenite'
(see RI-839i 'Recovering my father - Part I'
RI-840i 'Recovering my father - Part II'
RI-846i 'Recovering my father - Part III - Value of Telepathy')
Telepathic Auditing-session with Ma (my mother),
on 26 April 1997, 08:39 GMT
ordered by Ambassador for Mankind.
(An Auditor is someone who listens.)
reference:
RI-771i 'Use of Telepathy' of 4 Jan 1997
http://Art-Org.com/ri-bulletins/ri-771i.htm
[Auditor:] What, if found out by 'Pa',
would destroy you? LFBDBDBD
[Ma:]
"I want to prevent Pa
from having communication to Koos. LFBDBD LFBD LFBDBD LFBD
"Now and then I tell Pa
how happy I am about my other children and their family LF
and
how much - on the contrary -
Koos is making me unhappy and
that he is a riddle to me. LFBDBD
"I do this LFBDBDBD
in order that Pa thinks it is Koos
who does not want to communicate to us. LFBDBDBD
"But,
I myself do not want to communicate to Koos.
I myself do not want that Pa communicates to Koos. LF's
I myself do not want to GET communication from Koos. F's
"I want that Pa thinks it is Koos
who does not want to communicate to us." LFBD
[Auditor:] What, if found out by Pa,
would destroy you? LFBD
[Ma:]
"I wanted to have Pa for myself. LFBDBDBD
I did not want to share Pa with Koos. LFBD
"I was jealous about Koos' and Pa's good communication,
when Koos was a young boy. LFBD
"I wanted that Pa takes his attention off of Koos
and gives it to me. LFBDBD
"I wanted to sever the links LFBD
between Pa and Koos - LFBD
especially when I asked Pa
to go to Koos and cite the law to Koos
about the relationship between parents and children."
[Auditor:] What, if found out by Pa,
would destroy you?
[Ma:]
"At that time, LF's
I wanted to take revenge on Pa
for Pa not giving me all the attention
I wanted to get from him LF's
and
for not admiring me
as I wanted to be admired, LFBD
for not making me number one in his life,
and
for not making me
into an example for the children to look up to and listen to,
for not backing me up."
[Auditor:] What, if found out by Pa,
would destroy you? LFBD LFBD LFBD
[Ma:]
"That after all these years
with the children in the house,
I finally got him LFBD
to do what I want him to do, and
to see in me LFBD
his most important partner for communicating. LFBD
"I always wanted to have Pa all for myself, F's
and
I have wanted to prevent Pa from communicating,
not only to Koos, but to others too. LFBD
"I HAVE TRIED TO DOMINATE PA LFBD
INTO MAKING ME THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN HIS LIFE LFBD
WITH LITTLE OR NO INTEREST IN OTHERS."
LFBD-F/Nind [= truth established]
'Ma Nolst Trenite'
Total session time: 1 hrs 33 min
Highly specialized Telepathic Auditing
at 700 US $ per hour, makes 1,085 US $ total cost.
Telepathic Auditing-session with Ma (my mother),
on 26 April 1997, 10:55 GMT
ordered by Ambassador for Mankind.
(An Auditor is someone who listens.)
reference:
RI-771i 'Use of Telepathy' of 4 Jan 1997
http://Art-Org.com/ri-bulletins/ri-771i.htm
[Auditor:] Which other friendships of Pa
have you destroyed, and how?
[Ma:]
"The friendship of Pa to Gijs: LFBD
I didn't let much friendship come up, LF
not much personal, intimate talking.
"Lide, as being the youngest and having been the last out of the house,
I occupied as 'my child', and
I bound her more onto myself -
instead of helping her friendship with Pa develop. LFBD
"Pa tried to have some influence on Aunt Mariet, LFBD LFBD
to involve her in family life, and
in her helping Koos further (she once gave Koos the money for a car). LFBD
I told Pa:
'You can't ask her to help Koos'."
[Auditor:] When?
[Ma:]
"In 1980,
when Koos started with the Art project in the Castle.
"I told Pa:
'Koos must do projects by which HE earns money'. LFBD
'He can't let others pay for it'." LFBD
[Auditor:] Which other friendships of Pa
have you destroyed, and how?
[Ma:]
"I always thought
we had a very lively life together
with many people around us.
"But I haven't made any friends,
and Pa neither -
although he had more contact to people
through his work in his firm. LFBD
"And now we are very much isolated,
and everyone of the family goes his own way. LF's
"We know of each other, and
exchange news now and then, and greetings, and
sometimes we see each other.
But for the rest,
each one of us leads his own separate life. LFBDBD
"I have wanted it like that. LFBD
"And now Pa and me are alone in the house.
"I withdraw into my household chores, and
Pa sits in the livingroom reading
or goes alone for a walk, and
sometimes we go both together, and
rarely we go further away.
"And in warm days we sit in the garden and read,
sometimes Pa is painting and I do some weaving -
that's the life we are leading now. LFBD
"That's how I wanted Pa to be for me."
F/Nind
'Ma Nolst Trenite'
Total session time: 1 hr 20 min
Highly specialized Telepathic Auditing
at 700 US $ per hour, makes 933 US $ total cost.
Telepathic Auditing-session with Ma (my mother),
on 26 April 1997, 12:50 GMT
ordered by Ambassador for Mankind.
(An Auditor is someone who listens.)
reference:
RI-771i 'Use of Telepathy' of 4 Jan 1997
http://Art-Org.com/ri-bulletins/ri-771i.htm
[Auditor:] What did Pa nearly find out about you?
[Ma:]
"I was very much not wanting, the past days,
that Koos would write or phone us." LF
[Auditor:] What did he do to make you think he knew?
[Ma:]
"He went upstairs where Koos' room was,
to look for something, and
coming back, he had an expression in his face
which communicated to me: 'How empty the house is now!'" LFBD
[Auditor:] What did Pa nearly find out about you?
[Ma:]
"That I wanted to hinder Pa from communicating LFBD
with Koos [by sending Koos away] LFBD
when I wanted to send Koos to a boarding school." LF
[Auditor:] What did Pa do to make you think he knew?
[Ma:]
"At the end, Pa rejected that idea, that proposal I made."
[Auditor:] What did Pa nearly find out about you?
[Ma:]
"When Koos was communicating with Pa and they had their talks,
I was letting them communicate,
but
I was sitting silently away from them
or going out of the room,
with a disagreement about them communicating."
[Auditor:] What did Pa do to make you think he knew?
[Ma:]
"He glanced at me, but he let me go,
instead of inviting me to sit with them
and listen or participate in their communication." LFBD
[Auditor:] What did Pa nearly find out about you? LFBD
[Ma:]
"That I didn't want Pa really
to live WITH his family [= his children],
that is,
I wanted to PREVENT Pa from really enjoying his family." LFBD
[Auditor:] What did he do to make you think he knew?
[Ma:]
"Pa agreed very UNwillingly
to talk to Koos about what the law [Civil Code] provided for
in the relationship of parents and children. LFBD
"That's where I wanted Pa
NOT to be a parent and
NOT to be a friend to Koos."
F/Nind
'Ma Nolst Trenite'
Total session time: 49 min
Highly specialized Telepathic Auditing
at 700 US $ per hour, makes 572 US $ total cost.
(The abbreviations sF(small Fall), F(Fall), LF(Long Fall),
LFBD(Long Fall Blow Down) and F/N(Floating Needle) describe
reactions on the E-meter, indicating mental charge (sF, F,
LF, LFBD), and release of charge completed (F/N).
"LFBD-F/N" = truth found out. "ind" = indicated to the person.)
(See RI-610i 'Understanding the E-meter, correctly' of 26 June 96
RI-648i 'Simplicity of E-meter use, by UNDERSTANDING it' 1 Aug 96
RI-687i 'Notes on E-meter use and Solo-Auditing' 4 Sept 96
RI-771i 'Use of Telepathy' of 4 Jan 1997)
Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind
Copyright 1997 by Koos Nolst Trenite
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References (available at the Library http://Art-Org.com):
(about Koos' parents and family)
RI-846i 'Recovering my father - Part III - Value of Telepathy' 28 Apr 97
RI-840i 'Recovering my father - Part II' of 26 Apr 97
RI-839i 'Recovering my father - Part I' of 26 Apr 97
RI-841i 'My mother - regrettably, but true: a suppressive person' Apr 97
RI-811i 'Telepathic talk with my brother' of 27 Mar 1997
RI-767i 'My mother crediting me' of 21 Dec 1996
RI-698i 'Treat a Psychotic as a Psychotic (on my mother)' of 18 Sept 96
RI-697i 'Telepathic Auditing for my Father - On Friendships' 17 Sept 96
RI-689i 'Auditing a psychotic telepathically' of 7 Sept 1996
RI-688i 'Handling parents - a psychotic mother' of 7 Sept 1996
(about Koos Nolst Trenite)
RI-126Ri 'Koos Nolst Trenite - identity' of 29 Mar 1995
RI-480i 'Koos Nolst Trenite - Life-story' of 14 Feb 1996
RI-828i 'Koos Nolst Trenite personally visited' of 19 Apr 1997
(about marriage and family and problems in marriage)
RI-759i 'Understanding a Typical Marriage Problem' of 12 Dec 1996
RI-543i 'Dictators' of 22 July 1994, issued 2 May 1996
RI-631i 'Definition of "Woman"' of 12 July 1996
RI-537i 'The Right to Demand Awareness' of 15 Apr 1996
RI-629i 'Definition of "Care"' of 12 July 1996
RI-734i 'Orienting Children' of 13 Nov 1996
RI-781BPI'Raising Children - or Keeping Them Small?' of 14 Jan 97
RI-713i 'Handling Attacks Correctly - Space and Love' 18 Oct 1996
RI-602i 'Definition of Power' of 20 June 1996
RI-785i 'On Not Remedying Disagreements - "Not Talking"' of 24 Jan 97
RI-771i 'Use of Telepathy' of 4 Jan 1997
(about art and about religion)
RI-019Ri 'Artists and Ethics' of 10 Sept 1992
RI-704Ri 'Real Art is not hard to understand' of 30 Sept 1996
RI-738Si 'Christianity - Love, and Guilt solved' shortened 22 Dec 96
(about understanding and handling criminals and enemies)
RI-058Ri 'Fair Game Series - Treatment of Enemies' of 1 Jan 950
RI-487i 'Dialogue: On Enemies and Hostility' of 20 Feb 1996
RI-535i '"An Enemy of my Enemy is my Friend" = INSANE' of 10 Apr 1996
RI-646i 'FACING those who are mean or dishonest' of 31 July 1996
(about RI-Bulletins)
RI-380Ri 'Obtaining Truth from the RI-Bulletins' of 1 Nov 1995
RI-50RQi 'RI-xxxi series Archive - Content and Use' 28 Dec 94
Revised and Replaced on 6 March 1996
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