17 August 1997
issued 2 November 1997
RI-943i 'Jutta: "Don't face evil - Destroy Koos instead" - Part I'
from Ambassador for Mankind
Message # RI-943i for Internet
(Also appearing in the RDS-series,
the "Resolving Domination Series".)
"Koos wanted to get
me and others OUT of domination
and
Koos needed my assistance with this,
which I REFUSED to give him in that matter."
'Jutta Nolst Trenite'
Solo-Confessional(*) of Jutta Nolst Trenite,
on 17 August 1997, 11:55 GMT,
ordered by Ambassador for Mankind.
[Solo-Auditor(**):] How would "Koos is dominating me"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"For destroying Koos, LFBD(***)
for refusing to work FOR Koos. LFBD
"In 1977, in Stuttgart,
I got heavily upset LFBD
[I was nearly found out by Koos
that I did not at all want to work for him, not for his benefit,
nor for the benefit of others,
but that I only wanted to be given life by Koos and by others]
when Koos told me: LFBD
'You are not working WITH me. LFBD
You are working FOR me!'
"Then, I (insanely and most destructively) considered Koos' saying
'You are working FOR me!',
to be an attempt of Koos to dominate me. F
"But, I was already upset BEFORE - about
Koos' intention to [face and understand and] handle
suppression by the [Scientology Organization's] Guardian Office staff
[now called Office of Special Affairs, OSA],
I was upset
that Koos ALSO wanted to do that
'instead of Koos ONLY selling paintings WITH me, in Stuttgart'. LFBD LFBD
"What I did not WANT to see, was that
L. Ron Hubbard was dominating me
INTO attacking Koos and
INTO being upset with Koos about
Koos wanting
[very much against the hidden intentions of L. Ron Hubbard,
as we NOW know]
to handle actual Suppressive Persons (see Footnote)
[as we now know, INCLUDING L. Ron Hubbard himself]
- the staff that L. Ron Hubbard in 1977 still [but also now]
'considered precious to have'.
"It was L. Ron Hubbard who was dominating me [into
'wanting to have nothing to do with facing and handling his suppression'].
"Koos wanted to HANDLE [detect and resolve] the domination.
"Koos wanted to get
me and others OUT of domination
and
Koos there needed my assistance with this,
which I REFUSED to give him in that matter." LFBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would 'Koos is dominating me'
make others wrong?
[Jutta:]
"My Natter [destructively complaining] went that
'I wanted to help Koos with Art Promotion and Art selling LFBD
and he treated me not as an equal
but as an employee who is working for him', LFBD
and that LFBD
'Koos withdrew from promoting art as soon as I turned up, LFBD
and then Koos started to handle the
Guardian Office Suppressive Persons'.
"This was a complete lie -
Koos had already started to handle the Guardian Office Suppressives
in 1976 (the year before Koos met me)
as soon as he detected
non-survival and suppressive intentions and actions from them.
"And Koos also continued to be the Art Promoter,
as HE had created the game and
HE planned, decided and kept the art activity going, and not me.
"Koos trained me in selling,
Koos cared for my mental health.
Koos was the spirit behind all activities.
"And L. Ron Hubbard wanted me to believe that KOOS is dominating me,
so that I would not look at and face the fact
that L. Ron Hubbard
had kicked Koos out and then had kicked me also out, and
that L. Ron Hubbard
had CONTINUED to employ his Suppressive Persons
[reported to him by Koos and others] and
that L. Ron Hubbard
had REFUSED [when asked by Koos] to give any help to our art activity,
in fact, [L. Ron Hubbard secretly] wanted to destroy the art activity.
"KOOS was not dominating me!
Koos had the intention to show me
that there WAS domination and suppression and
that Koos doesn't want anyone to be dominated." LFBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "Koos is dominating me"
make you right? LFBD
[Jutta:]
"For [covertly] running away from Koos
'so that I wouldn't be dominated',
'so that I could do what I pleased',
'so that I could go to places - wherever I felt like going - LFBD
PRETENDING that I was leaving in an attempt to sell my paintings and
PRETENDING to be interested in [creating more] life'.
"All this is bloody Natter [evil complaining] -
as if Koos would prevent me
from being active and
from travelling,
from selling my paintings,
from having friends,
from having a family,
from having pleasure in life,
from painting,
from reading,
from enjoying music,
from being alive! LFBDBD
"Koos wants me to be alive,
Koos wants others to be alive,
Koos wants to be alive himself, and
Freya and Noel want that, too.
"What is wrong is that L. Ron Hubbard LFBD
WANTS TO DOMINATE ME INTO CONSIDERING that
'Koos wants to dominate me'." LFBD
[Note by Koos:
This is only partially true, as you will see in the next sessions,
because Jutta wants to THINK of herself
as wanting all these things - being alive,
which sure, basically she wants and enjoys greatly
when she decides to actually do these things -
but all these very things
she has destroyed all her life,
all these things
she has thoroughly, all her life, since her youth,
made very sure that she did NOT get
- or when given - did then destroy.]
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "Koos is dominating me"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"For my [secretly, but stubbornly insisting and persisting in]
not wanting to be alive
'because Koos would stop me from doing what I want to do':
Painting or
phoning [to make sales appointments] or
making street-exhibitions or
reading books, etc. LFBDBD
"Sure,
Koos would stop me from doing these things, when,
after evaluation and looking at me,
Koos sees that
I HAVE no intention to bring about survival, but
I have the intention
[to only PRETEND to do so,
and am in actual fact only, as almost always, wanting]
to ESCAPE looking at [facing] life, and
to EVADE looking at suppression. LFBD
(see also RI-942i 'Socrates - Self-portrait of his Death' of 25 Oct 97
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-942i.htm)
"Koos DOES let me do anything when he sees that
I AM being myself and that
I AM determined to create good effects. LFBD LFBD LF's
"Koos is not dominating me, but
Koos is watching that I am neither dominated
by evil intentions of others nor
by evil intentions of my own." LFBDBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "Koos is dominating me"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"For going into 'Serenity'
[as once promoted by L. Ron Hubbard
and greedily accepted by Jutta and by others]
'so that I can have
some calm, some pleasure in life, somehow'. LFBD
['Serenity', here:
A criminal spiritual state of
pretending to be great and noble and
demanding admiration just for being in such a state,
while in fact actively destroying all life around. (Note by Koos)]
[Jutta:]
"That's interesting!
"I WOULD LET MYSELF BE DOMINATED BY L. Ron Hubbard
IN ORDER TO 'ESCAPE' THE DOMINATION OF L. Ron Hubbard!
(Because it's not Koos who is dominating me, but
it's L. Ron Hubbard who wants me to BELIEVE that it's Koos
who is dominating me)." LFBD
(see RI-24i 'Definition of "Potential Trouble Source" - IMPORTANT'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-024i.htm)
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "Koos is dominating me"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"For Nattering [destructively complaining]:
'Koos doesn't let me do any promotion,
Koos doesn't let me use the phone,
and at the same time he wants me to validate him LFBDBD
as having put the phones there at my disposal, LFBD
and having put the computer there at my disposal,
and having made a sales-data computer-program for me to use, LFBD
and when I open the program to look at some data,
Koos tells me I shouldn't bother doing that
because I already know all the data.' LFBD
[When she is using it to PRETEND to be busy,
and not to BE busy. (Note by Koos)]
[Jutta:]
"'Koos is dominating me'
makes me 'right'
for [intentionally, out of pure evil]
REFUSING to understand Koos, and
for [intentionally, in order not to see own intentions to destroy life]
REFUSING to see good intentions in what Koos is telling me.
"(Like in the above,
which at first glance seems silly,
especially if one does not look at the [insane] condition I am in
when Koos is saying such things to me [as
'Don't phone potential buyers now -
in the state you are in, you are only upsetting them'].
When I am using 'Koos is dominating me',
I certainly do NOT look at
my own condition [at the state I am in].) LFBD
[Note by Koos:
She is using
"Koos is dominating me" or
"Everybody is dominating me"
IN ORDER TO not look at how and what she is doing.
She HERSELF refuses to generate life and aliveness,
and in order not to have it seen as such BY HERSELF,
she tells herself that
"It is because I am dominated",
"OTHERS want me not to be alive" -
and in fact it is in the first place HERSELF
who wants to not generate life, HERSELF
who wants to CREATE deadness and no-activity.
(see also RI-941i 'Benjamin Franklin's fatal decision of 1788'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-941i.htm)]
[Jutta:]
"When I phone and communicate to potential buyers
WITHOUT being there as myself and
WITHOUT A-R-C [Affinity, Reality, Communication -
Understanding, friendliness, closeness],
REFUSING to duplicate their reality,
then it's no use to phone them, [of course].
"And when I am
in someone else's Valence
[acting and being as another person,
not generating own lifeforce]
or in the Valence of an old [past-life] suppressive identity
of mine [like being a dictator, or slavemaster, or beggar],
then it's NO USE to phone.
"It would be a PRETENSE
to want to make appointments for selling paintings, and
I would only destroy A-R-C [here: relationships],
and waste money.
"But when I AM there, as myself, and AM being alive, LFBD
Koos has never stopped me from doing what I wanted to do. LFBD
"When I Natter [secretly, evilly complain] that
'Koos is dominating me', LFBDBDBD
I DO NOT LOOK AT KOOS BUT I AM DOMINATED
[by my own evil and] BY L. Ron Hubbard."
LFBD-F/Nind [= truth found out]
'Jutta Nolst Trenite'
Total session time: 2 hr 18 min
(Continued in
RI-944i 'Jutta: "Don't face evil - Destroy Koos instead" - Part II'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-944i.htm)
Motto of the 'Resolving Domination Series' (RDS):
"Koos is giving much more life than all other beings I know.
I want to be in communication with Koos."
(Jutta's own viewpoint in 1977 for joining Koos)
Footnote:
See the 'Understanding Suppression Series', at
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/usp.htm
* (see RI-541i 'Correct and Joyful Confessional Procedure - I' 20 Apr 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-541i.htm
and following parts II, III, IV)
** [Definition of 'Solo-Auditor':
Someone who writes down his own confession
in response to given questions,
with the purpose to release emotional charge and aberrations.]
*** (The abbreviations sF(small Fall), F(Fall), LF(Long Fall), LFBD(Long
Fall Blow Down) and F/N(Floating Needle) describe reactions on the
E-meter, indicating mental charge (sF, F, LF, LFBD), and release of
charge completed (F/N).
"LFBD-F/N" = truth found out. "ind" = indicated to the person.)
(see RI-610i 'Understanding the E-meter, correctly' of 26 June 1996
RI-648i 'Simplicity of E-meter use, by UNDERSTANDING it' 1 Aug 96
RI-687i 'Notes on E-meter use and Solo-Auditing' of 4 Sept 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-687i.htm)
Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind
Copyright 1997 by Koos Nolst Trenite
Editors: Freya Nolst Trenite and Blair Wiley
Final Editor: Koos Nolst Trenite
Supervision and publication requested by Jutta Nolst Trenite
Actions and Publication ordered by Ambassador for Mankind
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References (available also at the Library "http://Art-Org.com/"):
- About Koos exposing the Guardian Office
RI-390i 'LRH's Wrong Indications About Koos since 1976' 30 Nov 1995
RI-397i 'What LRH had to do with it' of 5 Dec 1995
RI-491i 'Church-staff: "I had nothing against KOOS!"' 24 Feb 1996
RI-566i 'Former Guardian Jane Kember on L. Ron Hubbard and Koos' 19 May 96
RI-334Ri 'Scientology Church PR on "Guardian Office" corrected' 24 Aug 96
- About the being L. Ron Hubbard and Jutta
RI-940i '"L. Ron Hubbard is an idiot" as Jutta's "Solution" to life'
RI-588i 'Resolving Betrayal by L. Ron Hubbard - I' of 31 May 1996
...
RI-652i 'Resolving Betrayal by L. Ron Hubbard - Part IX' of 31 June 1996
RI-789i 'PROPAGANDA of L. Ron Hubbard almost exposed July 1994' 6 Feb 1997
RI-743i '"Winning" and "Overwhelming" done by L. Ron Hubbard' of 11 Nov 96
RI-632i 'The being L. Ron Hubbard, Current State' of 14 July 1996
RI-634i 'The Operating Satan L. Ron Hubbard' of 12 July 1996
RI-645i 'The Operating Satan L. Ron Hubbard, more evidence' of 1 Aug 1996
- About the "Serenity"-insanity
RI-772i 'Serenity Devils of L. Ron Hubbard understood better' of 5 Jan 97
RI-766i 'The Hidden Serenity Doctrine - VERY IMPORTANT' of 27 Dec 1996
RI-670i 'The Vicious Arrogance of "Serenity" and L. Ron Hubbard' 18 Aug 96
RI-508i 'L. Ron Hubbard's Lethal Admiration and Serenity' 12 Mar 1996
- About the evil and domination by L. Ron Hubbard
RI-661i 'Domination by L. Ron Hubbard understood' of 4 Aug 1996
RI-642i 'The Mystery of Scientology Organization - Revealed' of 24 July 96
RI-783i 'A lesson in Hubbard-Scientology Public Relations' of 19 Jan 1997
RI-732i 'The Evil in L. Ron Hubbard's Scientology Philosophy' of 10 Nov 96
RI-650Ri 'All Scientologists destroy your Civil Rights everywhere' 5 Aug 96
RI-806i 'Scientology-"Religion" - evil in business and science' 16 Mar 97
RI-904i 'L. Ron Hubbard's attitude towards his staff' of 6 July 1997
RI-902i 'Dominators dominating Dominator L. Ron Hubbard' of 29 June 1997
- About facing and handling evil and Suppressive Persons
RI-929i 'Simple Detection: "Sane or Insane?"' of 11 Sept 1997
RI-602i 'Definition of Power' of 20 June 1996
RI-629i 'Definition of "Care"' of 12 July 1996
RI-908i 'The Ostrich-factor - on facing evil or criminality' of 16 July 97
RI-010i 'Confronting a Suppressive' of 12 Oct 1994
RI-024i 'Definition of "Potential Trouble Source" - IMPORTANT' 19 Nov 1994
RI-058Ri 'Fair Game Series - Treatment of Enemies' of 1 Jan 1995
RI-487i 'Dialogue: On Enemies and Hostility' of 20 Feb 1996
RI-535i '"An Enemy of my Enemy is my Friend" = INSANE' of 10 Apr 1996
- About RI-Bulletins
RI-380Ri 'Obtaining Truth from the RI-Bulletins' of 1 Nov 1995
RI-50RQi 'RI-xxxi series Archive - Content and Use' 28 Dec 94
Revised and Replaced on 6 March 1996
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