18 August 1997
issued 2 November 1997
RI-947i 'Jutta's Determination to Punish L. Ron Hubbard FOREVER'
from Ambassador for Mankind
Message # RI-947i for Internet
(Also appearing in the RDS-series,
the "Resolving Domination Series".)
(Previously intended title:
RI-947i 'Jutta: "Don't face evil - Destroy Koos instead" - Part V')
"My game [NOW,
since my very heavily and forcefully hiding from Koos my
decision and total determination of 25 July 1994
to NOT face
the continued, hidden betrayal by the being L. Ron Hubbard,
but rather
to secretly destroy myself completely, irrepairably and forever
(so that even Koos can't
get me - and can so also not get L. Ron Hubbard -
out of it again)
IN ORDER TO PUNISH L. RON HUBBARD - by refusing to stop his evil -
for his determination to refuse to repair his betrayal
despite promising to do so],
is:
'TO MYSELF BE AS EVIL
AS I CAN GET AWAY WITH'."
'Jutta'
Solo-Confessional(*) of Jutta Nolst Trenite,
on 18 August 1997, 08:09 GMT,
ordered by Ambassador for Mankind.
[Solo-Auditor(**):] How would "Koos is dominating me"
help you to escape domination?
[Jutta:]
"It is an evil trick by L. Ron Hubbard
to 'Declare' [to pronounce formally, and in writing] as 'Suppressive'
those
who don't let themselves be dominated
by him, or
who don't let themselves be dominated
by Suppressive Persons (see Footnote)
in his organizations, LFBD(***)
and
AT THE SAME TIME
to attack also
those associated with such a ['Declared', excommunicated] person, and
to enforce (falsely) on those,
that it is that person who got 'Declared' [expelled] unjustly, LFBD
who would be the one who is dominating those others
[into being stopped in training or services
that they already fully paid for, or
into being denied by Hubbard all their social contacts,
or even
into being excommunicated
for NOT severing (cutting) all contact with the person and
for NOT so harming the person who is being
falsely 'Declared Suppressive' by L. Ron Hubbard (Note by Koos)].
[Jutta:]
"THAT's how L. Ron Hubbard and other Suppressive Persons
wanted and want me to believe that
'Koos is dominating me'.
"L. Ron Hubbard enforced on me:
'KOOS is dominating you.
KOOS is keeping you away
from getting [paid for] services in Scientology Organizations.
FORGET that [the truth is that] it is ME
who kicked you out because you wanted to live with Koos.'
"Note by me now:
There must be thousands of people
who got enforced [on them, in the Scientology Organization]
a 'PTS Rundown'
[they were told to pay for and complete a course that would
'free them from the influence of the "Declared" individual']
with a Wrong Item [targeting the wrong individual]: LFBD
A so-called Suppressive Person who
ACTUALLY just looked through L. Ron Hubbard and
in fact wanted his wife, husband, child, friend, etc.,
not to be dominated by L. Ron Hubbard, LFBD
[is falsely labeled by L. Ron Hubbard as a 'Suppressive Person'].
"And then they do a 'PTS-Rundown' [therapy-course]
on the WRONG Suppressive Person
[on the falsely 'Declared' person,
INSTEAD OF on L. Ron Hubbard!],
and - enforced
by the Scientology group and LFBD
by a suppressive Ethics Officer [in the Organization] and
by L. Ron Hubbard -
they separate from the one 'Declared' 'Suppressive', and
the Scientology group cheers, and
L. Ron Hubbard has enforced once again
a group agreement to not look at him. LFBD
"'Koos is dominating me'
is a Wrong Item [a falsity, enforced, with some success, as truth]
enforced by L. Ron Hubbard LFBD
- and
it does NOT help me to ESCAPE domination by L. Ron Hubbard."
LFBD-F/Nind [= truth established]
[Note by Koos:
It SEEMS,
when you do what a criminal demands of you,
that he will not execute his threat to ruin your life.
It SEEMS like escaping his domination,
while in fact you are doing exactly what he wants
and what he tells you to do.]
[Jutta:]
"'Koos is dominating me' is a Wrong Item. LFBD
"The CORRECT Item on the question
'Who is dominating me?' is: L. RON HUBBARD.
LFBD-F/Nind [= truth established]
"The correct Item on the question
'Who is dominating Mankind?' is: L. Ron Hubbard."
LFBD-F/Nind [= truth established]
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "Koos is dominating me"
help you to dominate others?
[Jutta:]
"With my saying 'Koos is dominating me', LFBD
I would make others
not look at ME (at MY evil intentions to destroy life),
but I make them
get annoyed with Koos,
INSTEAD OF
[me letting them see that they should be]
demanding from ME
an ethical behavior
towards Koos and
towards my family, and then
[me bringing at least about in them
that they are then not wanting to support my evil, but are]
wanting to help KOOS
out of an understanding now that I was about to ruin him.
"When [the several times that] I was Blown
[had secretly run away and stayed away,
hiding, from everybody I met, the fact that I
had deserted all my responsibilities
and was unfindable, going from hotel to hotel],
I didn't want people to look at MY evil intentions,
and
I did not want them to see or to understand
that they [these people who bought an occasional painting]
were in actual fact 'helping' me
TO KEEP UP MY PRETENSE that
I was [running away from home and that I was away PRETENDING to be]
'caring for Koos and my family'. LFBD
"Also, I refused to indicate [to show] to people, that
all the time since 1977,
I was dominated by L. Ron Hubbard
into being evil to Koos. LF's
"I REFUSED to let people know (and refused to know it myself)
that [especially when I was Blown]
I WAS A TOOL FOR
L. RON HUBBARD'S INTENTION
TO DESTROY KOOS.
"I refused to let people know,
that
I also stayed [out of communication and
hidden] away [from anybody to contact me], because
I did NOT WANT to look at any evil intentions
of L. Ron Hubbard or
of any of his Suppressive Persons
[staff of the Scientology Organization],
and
that
[I stayed away
to more easily attack Koos spiritually and otherwise and]
I ATTACKED KOOS FOR HIM LOOKING AT THEM
- just the same as L. Ron Hubbard and his Suppressive Persons
attacked also Koos for looking [into the truth about them]. LFBDBD
"I refused to tell people
that I did in actual fact precisely what
the Suppressive Person L. Ron Hubbard wanted me to do:
I ruined Koos. LFBD LFBD
"I never WANTED to realize
how much I was [and am] in the grip of
the Suppressive Person L. Ron Hubbard." LFBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "Koos is dominating me"
help you to dominate others?
[Jutta:]
"With 'Koos is dominating me'
I WOULD refuse to duplicate [see and understand]
Koos' Reality [that what is in or on Koos' mind], and
I HAVE refused to duplicate Koos' Reality.
"I WOULD refuse to duplicate the reality of
normal life in the physical universe [just plain living] and
I HAVE refused to do that, LFBD
I HAVE refused to look at
what bills there are to be paid and
when and what purchases are needed to be done, and
I have refused to keep our lives and our activity going. LFBDBD
"I have refused to look at what repairs have to be made LFBD
in the house, on cars, on equipment.
"I have REFUSED [intentionally not wanted] to care
for any activity in the house, and LFBD
I have REFUSED to care
for any activity outside the house as well, LFBD
be it
- art activity,
- activity for Mankind,
- of educational nature,
- of entertainment,
- of pleasure,
- of coming together with friends. LF's
"I haven't cared for anything. LF's
"I haven't created any life.
"I have only destroyed, LF
and refused to create aliveness. F's
"All physical universe objects,
all activity and
all life that is there in our lives
(in Koos', Freya's, Noel's and mine)
for family (Second Dynamic) and
for group (Third Dynamic) activity
- the communication with others -
Koos has created and put there and Koos keeps alive, F's
and
I have [on top of that]
been running away even from duplicating [seeing, recognizing]
what deadness and destruction came from me. LFBD
"And I have [INSTEAD] accused Koos of 'dominating me',
['dominating me' into looking what I am doing,
'dominating me' into being somewhat alive],
ACCUSING Koos -
while HE wanted me to duplicate what I am doing and
while HE wanted me to be alive! LFBDBDBD
"L. Ron Hubbard has intended and created all that deadness. [see below]
"The Suppressive Person is L. Ron Hubbard."
LFBDBD-F/Nind [= truth established]
[Jutta to Koos:]
"It HURTS to look at that.
It is good to look at that, but it hurts."
[Koos:] How does it hurt?
How about writing that also down
so that others can read about it,
or do you think you are the only one [ever]
to be [or who is being] that psychotic?
[Jutta:]
"The HURTING stems from re-experiencing times
when I was hurt [with mental force generated and enforced on me]
by L. Ron Hubbard,
or, on another Flow [a different direction - from whom to whom],
when I was hurting another or others [with such mental force]
because of [my not facing] L. Ron Hubbard
[because of
his influence on me and because of
his trickery and manipulation of me].
"I am perceiving L. Ron Hubbard's INTENDED diminishing
of my life-zest,
I am perceiving the [mental] force with which
he diminished my life-force,
- [this is what I'm re-experiencing] as HURTING.
"I am perceiving the [mental] force of him with which
he invalidated my desire to reach out and to be alive,
as HURTING.
"It was hurting at the time that he did it and
I am now re-experiencing the hurting and
I am aware of [the fact] that HE did the hurting to me.
"All the times of
wanting to reach out and
considering that I can't reach out,
since 1977 (and by Restimulating earlier times),
are HURTING. LFBD
"There is in it this [mental] force of
invalidation by L. Ron Hubbard of my desire to be alive,
the bashing in of my [mental] space which he did,
is HURTING.
"It's good to duplicate that
[for me to perceive that truthfully
and so to diminish its influence on me]. LFBD
"On the other Flow
[me doing the same thing to others as he did or does to me]:
I perceive the hurting
that I have inflicted upon Koos, Freya and Noel and others.
I perceive how it hurt others
when I was diminishing THEIR lifeforce,
when I was destroying
their High-Tonedness [liveliness],
their reach [curiosity for life],
their space [area which one experiences as being part of one's life],
their goals,
their enthusiasm and fervor [desire for action]." LFBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "Koos is dominating me"
help you to dominate others?
[Jutta:]
"I have dominated Koos, Freya and Noel into
not knowing what will be [because of me] in the future, LFBDBD
[- whether I will only destroy,
or when I will again create life
and for how many days or weeks
till I secretly decide, and hide from them
that I have decided to destroy life again forcefully -]
although THEY like to create for themselves
a future with
a lot of activity and
a lot of communication with others and
a lot of possessions." LFBD LFBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "Koos is dominating me"
help you to dominate others? LFBDBD
[Jutta:]
"It is a lie that Koos is dominating me.
"It is a lie - which L. Ron Hubbard is putting out [to me].
"It is a lie - which I myself have put out, about Koos, to others. LFBD
"THE TRUTH IS THAT LFBDBD
I HAVE AN INTENTION
TO BE 'DEAD' AND TO BE DESTRUCTIVE TO LIFE. LFBDBD
"And Koos
wants to live and wants all others to live. LFBD LFBD
"And when I look at Koos,
I see [I by comparison must look at] my deadness,
and MOST OF THE TIMES
I don't want to SEE my deadness.
[Note by Koos:
This is the real craziness
- she wants to NOT SEE her own deadness, and
she wants to force us and others to also not see it,
and
she does so with great, mean, evil, vicious
force of words, intentions and actions
"to show others" that she
is "very different" than she IS being and acting, and
"is not seen or accepted as she is".]
[Jutta:]
"And when I look at Koos,
I see [by comparison to what he creates]
how much deadness I spread around him and
how much I am suppressing his life-zest,
and most of the time
I do not WANT to see that,
and then
I Blow [secretly run away] from Koos,
mentally, or
mentally and physically as well."
[Jutta to Koos:]
"I REFUSE to help you, Koos,
AND [at the same time]
I refuse ALSO to look at how evil I am."
[Koos:] You REFUSE to have any [sincere] Communication with us.
You REFUSE to have
any Reality about us and
any Affinity [love] for us.
You REFUSE to have
any Communication with yourself
[with your good and with your evil], and
any Reality about yourself
[about how you are and how you could be],
any Affinity for yourself
[how you are and how you could be if you wanted to].
You take
the "right" 'not to understand anything'
[including how you act in life], and
you take
the "right" 'not to understand anybody'.
You have [are executing now] only one purpose in life, and
that is to destroy life, (...).
[Solo-Auditor:] Did you [Jutta] A-R-C-Break yourself
[Break your own Affinity, Reality, Communication]
about Koos?
(Did you destroy
your A-R-C [Understanding] for Koos?) LFBDBDBDBD
[Jutta:]
"In 1977, there was a specific time
[while I was] refusing to look
at L. Ron Hubbard's Suppressive Persons
in the Guardian Office and in Saint Hill UK, and
[while I was refusing to look]
at L. Ron Hubbard himself.
"Koos [was at the time] Exterior
[Koos was creating a very wide mental space around him
including very many people and
facing and being aware of L. Ron Hubbard's Suppressive Persons],
in the cafe [in East Grinstead]
(when I entered it and saw him sitting there
but did avoid to approach him).
[Assessment with the help of the E-meter:]
Was it a Break in
Affinity? F
Reality? LFBD
Communication? sF
Understanding? sF
It was
curious about Affinity LFBD
(I broke there my curiosity to have Affinity for Koos.)
It was
enforced Affinity F
(Instead, I enforced on myself to have 'Affinity' [insane admiration]
for L. Ron Hubbard and 'Affinity'
for his (evil) staff in East Grinstead.)"
[Solo-Auditor:] Which Suppressive Person
did you [Jutta] refuse to look at, and
out of refusal to look at whom, because of whom
did you then destroy your actual
A-R-C [Affinity, Reality, Communication] for Koos?
And because of which Suppressive Person
are you doing that NOW?
[Jutta:]
"Because of L. RON HUBBARD." LFBD
[Koos:] You CAN just be yourself [by just deciding to,
as we have seen many times in the past],
but you DON'T WANT TO.
[Koos:] Regarding 1977 when you noticed I was in the cafe,
you didn't WANT to keep your A-R-C for me,
[and already long before Scientology]
you also did not want to generate A-R-C
for your (grand)mother, etc.
In Saint Hill [you came to there because]
you wanted to get admiration from Scientologists,
admiration for "being in Scientology"
[like joining again
the criminal spiritual refuge of L. Ron Hubbard,
called 'Serenity Group'.]
What did you further want in 1977?
You wanted me ALSO to have no actual A-R-C
[no true Affinity, no true Reality, no true Communication].
You wanted me also to have no true A-R-C
for (...), for (...), (for Suppressive Persons).
You wanted ME to have no true A-R-C for anybody.
(...)
[Jutta:]
"In 1994,
BEFORE I went psychotic on 25 July 1994, LFBDBDBDBDBD
[when I looked at L. Ron Hubbard and had a glimpse
of his utter determination to be and REMAIN evil,
despite Koos' efforts to make him, the being, sane]
(shortly after the successful sale to [buyers of my paintings]),
BEFORE that, [in June 1994],
I had DECIDED to operate towards creating survival.
I had DECIDED to communicate towards [with the intention of]
selling my paintings
for their [by Koos] established price of 5,000 DM and
making appointments with people
[only] after having evaluated that they will buy
[and did so, very successfully, for almost two months].
"My game [NOW,
since my very heavily and forcefully hiding from Koos my
decision and total determination of 25 July 1994
(decision at around 21:00 GMT,
in Germany, near the town of Ludwigshafen)
to NOT face
the continued, hidden betrayal by the being L. Ron Hubbard,
but rather
to secretly destroy myself completely, irrepairably and forever
(so that even Koos can't
get me - and can so also not get L. Ron Hubbard -
out of it again)
IN ORDER TO PUNISH L. RON HUBBARD - by refusing to stop his evil -
for his determination to refuse to repair his betrayal
despite promising to do so],
is:
'TO MYSELF BE AS
EVIL [vicious, destructive, lying, pretending, ugly, hiding]
AS I CAN GET AWAY WITH'."
'Jutta Nolst Trenite'
Total session time: 4 hrs 21 min
Motto of the 'Resolving Domination Series' (RDS):
"Koos is giving much more life than all other beings I know.
I want to be in communication with Koos."
(Jutta's own viewpoint in 1977 for joining Koos)
Footnote:
See the 'Understanding Suppression Series', at
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/usp.htm
* (see RI-541i 'Correct and Joyful Confessional Procedure - I' 20 Apr 1996
http://Art-Org.com/ri-bulletins/ri-541i.htm
and following parts II, III, IV)
** [Definition of 'Solo-Auditor':
Someone who writes down his own confession
in response to given questions,
with the purpose to release emotional charge and aberrations.]
*** (The abbreviations sF(small Fall), F(Fall), LF(Long Fall), LFBD(Long
Fall Blow Down) and F/N(Floating Needle) describe reactions on the
E-meter, indicating mental charge (sF, F, LF, LFBD), and release of
charge completed (F/N).
"LFBD-F/N" = truth found out. "ind" = indicated to the person.)
(see RI-610i 'Understanding the E-meter, correctly' of 26 June 1996
RI-648i 'Simplicity of E-meter use, by UNDERSTANDING it' 1 Aug 96
RI-687i 'Notes on E-meter use and Solo-Auditing' of 4 Sept 1996
http://Art-Org.com/ri-bulletins/ri-687i.htm)
Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind
Copyright 1997 by Koos Nolst Trenite
Editors: Freya Nolst Trenite and Blair Wiley
Final Editor: Koos Nolst Trenite
Supervision and publication requested by Jutta Nolst Trenite
Actions and Publication ordered by Ambassador for Mankind
Personal Web-page:
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org
Personal Web-Library:
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/
Library Search Engine:
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/search.html
References (available at also the Library "http://Art-Org.com/"):
- About L. Ron Hubbard's use of Black Scientology
RI-1Ri 'The being Ron Hubbard is Back, but Why - The Betrayal' 7 Sept 97
RI-789i 'PROPAGANDA of L. Ron Hubbard almost exposed July 1994' 6 Feb 97
RI-907i 'A glimpse of spiritual warfare' of 16 July 1997
RI-867i 'How L. Ron Hubbard Destroys your Friendship with Koos' 19 May 97
RI-868i 'L. Ron Hubbard's Black Magic against Koos Nolst Trenite' 19 May 97
RI-570i 'How L. Ron Hubbard NOW tries to destroy Civilization' 22 May 96
RI-633i 'The Truth behind L. Ron Hubbard - VITAL VITAL DATA' 16 July 96
RI-632i 'The being L. Ron Hubbard, Current State' of 14 July 96
RI-634i 'The Operating Satan L. Ron Hubbard' of 12 July 1996
RI-645i 'The Operating Satan L. Ron Hubbard, more evidence' 1 Aug 96
RI-747i 'Black Scientology to cover up truth' of 26 Nov 1996
RI-547i 'What the being L. Ron Hubbard is NOW doing to Scnists' 4 May 96
RI-529i-A'What the being LRH is doing NOW - Addition' 22 Apr 96
RI-529i 'URGENT - What the being LRH is doing NOW' of 6 Apr 96
RI-488i 'Very able people at serious risk in Scn' 23 Feb 1996
- About some of the Lies of the being L. Ron Hubbard
RI-462i 'Corpses in LRH's Cupboard - IMPORTANT' of 25 Jan 96
RI-470i 'Confronting L. Ron Hubbard with "Bill Robertson"' of 31 Jan 96
RI-536i 'A talk with Koos on L. Ron Hubbard's secrets' 12 Apr 96
RI-475i 'L. Ron Hubbard, Strong AND Weak' of 6 Feb 1996
RI-476i 'LRH could be strong, but is very weak indeed' 6 Feb 96
RI-556i 'MAN is Basically Good - Not L. Ron Hubbard, OT XXIII' 11 May 96
- About L. Ron Hubbard's domination and hate for people
RI-902i 'Dominators dominating Dominator L. Ron Hubbard' of 29 June 1997
RI-848i 'Putting L. Ron Hubbard in perspective' of 3 May 1997
RI-770i 'Why Genghis Khan was liked by L. Ron Hubbard' of 29 Nov 1996
RI-743i '"Winning" and "Overwhelming" done by L. Ron Hubbard' of 11 Nov 96
RI-861i 'How the vicious liar L. Ron Hubbard hates Mankind!' of 12 May 97
RI-731i 'How L. Ron Hubbard Now Hates You All' of 6 Nov 1996
RI-546i 'Support for the being LRH now is Treason to Mankind' 4 May 96
RI-538i 'Official Expulsion of the being LRH from Scn' 17 Apr 96
- About the evil domination by Hubbard-Scientology Organizations
RI-661i 'Domination by L. Ron Hubbard understood' of 4 Aug 1996
RI-642i 'The Mystery of Scientology Organization - Revealed' 24 Jul 1996
RI-783i 'A lesson in Hubbard-Scientology Public Relations' of 19 Jan 1997
RI-732i 'The Evil in L. Ron Hubbard's Scientology Philosophy' of 10 Nov 96
RI-650Ri'All Scientologists destroy your Civil Rights everywhere' 5 Aug 96
RI-806i 'Scientology-"Religion" - evil in business and science' 16 Mar 97
RI-904i 'L. Ron Hubbard's attitude towards his staff' of 6 July 1997
RI-903i 'Fear of People motivates the whole "Church" of Scn' of 6 July 97
- About RI-Bulletins
RI-380Ri 'Obtaining Truth from the RI-Bulletins' of 1 Nov 1995
RI-50RQi 'RI-xxxi series Archive - Content and Use' 28 Dec 94
Revised and Replaced on 6 March 1996
These references and other RI-Bulletins can well be obtained here - or
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http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/usp.htm
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/telepathy.htm
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