25 August 1997
issued and edited 5 Nov 1997
slightly corrected 7 Nov 1997
RI-959i 'Jutta: "I just don't WANT to handle L. Ron Hubbard's insanity"'
from Ambassador for Mankind
Message # RI-959i for Internet
(Also appearing in the RDS-series,
the "Resolving Domination Series".)
"It would make Koos WRONG
for all the help he HAS given me since 1977,
for twenty years, LFBD
A HELP THAT L. RON HUBBARD HAS PROMISED,
BUT HAS REFUSED TO GIVE."
'Jutta Nolst Trenite'
Solo-Confessional(*) of Jutta Nolst Trenite,
on 25 August 1997, 13:07 GMT,
ordered by Ambassador for Mankind.
[Solo-Auditor(**):] How would "I will NOT communicate to Koos"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"It would make me right
- my 'rightness' about not going to communicate to Koos -
for having Blown [run away secretly] several times from Koos,
where I did not communicate to Koos for several months,
where each time I had the intention
[not to face the insanity and evil of L. Ron Hubbard (Note by Koos)]
not to communicate to Koos at all anymore [forever]:
In 1984,
1986,
1987,
1992 and
1993.
And before 1984:
In 1981,
1978.
"'Not going to communicate to Koos anymore'
[- when Jutta
completely, suddenly, hiding it stubbornly from Koos,
fully and finally and 'forever'
broke her Affinity for
handling the insanity and evil of L. Ron Hubbard
(which we had started to do a month before) -]
made me 'right'
[for driving herself almost irreparably insane (Note by Koos)]
for having made no high gross income since 25 July 1994,
for having dropped in these three years below
the average monthly gross income,
for having refused to sell my paintings.
"For having made no income for some months, since July 1994.
"For having destroyed all my pride in being an artist
that I had in June and July 1994 when I sold well. LFBDBD(***)
(see RI-789i 'PROPAGANDA of L. Ron Hubbard almost exposed July 1994'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-789i.htm)
"For STILL 'making nothing of' the horrendous domination
by L. Ron Hubbard. LFBD
"For not taking L. Ron Hubbard's continuous intention to dominate,
seriously enough
to detect L. Ron Hubbard
during moments of
me not being there [doping off, spells of unconsciousness],
me being afraid [experiencing irrational spells of fear],
me wanting to hide [feeling spiritually attacked
resulting in a desire to hide from the mental pressure exerted],
me pretending to be there [not looking at what is there,
doing as if all is fine],
me doubting myself [refusing to openly state own goals and purposes],
me doubting my intentions [not knowing whether I will survive], or
me doubting my ability to bring about good effects."
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will NOT communicate to Koos"
make others wrong?
[Jutta:]
"I would make Koos WRONG
for wanting me to sell,
for wanting me to contribute
to the family and to his job.
"I would make Koos WRONG
for him wanting [all of] that for me
[which I want anyway myself also
in order to carry out my goals in life].
"Koos has put everything there for me to make it possible:
Cars, telephones, fax, computers,
he sees to it that I have enough material for painting,
he made a computer central-files [data-base, in this case] for me,
he helps me during [spiritual, mental] attacks by L. Ron Hubbard,
he has devised thousands of C/S's [Case Supervisions] for me
in all these years since I've been doing Solo-Auditing (since 1994)." F
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will NOT communicate to Koos"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"It would make me right
for all the Overts [non-survival acts] I have committed
on Koos and Freya and Noel,
although I know they were not right [of me to do].
"It would make me right
for all the times I did what L. Ron Hubbard wanted me to do: LFBD
When I KICKED Koos OUT of my space
[wanted to do as if Koos does not exist].
When I REFUSED to Audit Koos
[make Koos more aware and more able].
When I REFUSED to work for Koos,
when I REFUSED to communicate to Koos."
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will NOT communicate to Koos"
make others wrong?
[Jutta:]
"It would make Koos WRONG
for his continuous [day and night, seven days a week] effort
to make ME be myself and be alive. LFBD
"It would make Koos WRONG
for his continuous effort to get me (and others)
out of the grip of Suppressive Persons and
be self-determined."
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make others wrong?
[Jutta:]
"It would make Koos WRONG
for all the help he HAS given me since 1977,
for twenty years, LFBD
A HELP THAT L. RON HUBBARD HAS PROMISED,
BUT HAS REFUSED TO GIVE." LFBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make others wrong?
[Jutta:]
"It will make Koos wrong
for the conditions I have caused
by letting myself be sent into apathy by L. Ron Hubbard. LFBD
"L. Ron Hubbard even manages
to have his Suppressive Persons attack
Bundeskanzler [German Chancellor, Prime Minister, President] Helmut Kohl
who has made an enormous effort
to free Germany from suppression, LFBDBD LFBD
while this big-mouth L. Ron Hubbard has done nothing to help -
(he talks about the goal of creating a sane civilization
WHILE he attacks the most responsible [citizens]!)"
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"It would make me right
for being a 'whore' to L. Ron Hubbard
[giving into any pressure exerted by him],
which is not right at all.
"It would make me right
for not talking about it when I feel a pain in my body LFBDBD
because
'that is something I have to handle and repair alone'. LFBDBDBD
"This is actually the response of my grandmother,
when my grandfather tells her 'don't lament!'." LFBDBDBDBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"For REFUSING to tell Koos about it
when I notice attacks [destructive intentions]
from Suppressive Persons."
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"For refusing to tell Koos
when I notice attacks [destructive intentions]
from Suppressive Persons,
and
for refusing to communicate to Koos about
how I intend to 'handle' attacks,
how I intend to 'avoid' attacks.
"In fact, many attacks I have created myself LFBD
by having refused to care for my family, F
and
by having been irresponsible for
[not wanting to see, admit and change] my decision
in 1788 [Benjamin Franklin's retirement] and definitely
in 1790 [Benjamin Franklin's death]
to not be there anymore for Mankind, LFBD
to not WANT to handle suppression of life anymore." LFBDBD
(see RI-941i 'Benjamin Franklin's fatal decision of 1788' of 24 Oct 1997
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-941i.htm)
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"For having ceased [stopped],
in 1788 [near the end of my life as Benjamin Franklin],
to handle suppression of life. LFBDBD LFBD LFBD LFBD
"In 1788 I decided
'I am ENDING, herewith, personally to handle suppression of life',
with 1) My testament,
2) my resigning from public offices. LFBD LFBD
"In 1788 I had a RIGHTNESS about that:
That I could now end handling suppression of life. LFBD
"In 1788 (the end of 1788 precisely),
I INDULGED IN THE BEAUTY OF IRRESPONSIBILITY. LFBD
"I was conceited [self-satisfied despite danger or insanity],
'sat back and watched the world', LFBD
BEING RIGHT about having personally
ceased to handle suppression of life. LFBDBDBD
"I perceive that RIGHTNESS - that conceit [pretended rightness] -
VERY STRONGLY NOW. LFBD
"I had this
[very destructive of others,
very mean attitude, of 'being superior',
filled with irrational hate and despising others] conceit,
also, after each good sale, THIS LIFETIME." LFBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make others wrong?
[Jutta:]
"It would make Koos WRONG
for intending to create survival and
for intending to handle suppression of life where he perceives it!"
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make others wrong?
[Jutta:]
"It would make those wrong
who appreciate Koos' work and
who assist him and
who are in communication with him! LFBD
"It would make all those wrong
who [naturally] DO confront and handle suppression,
in many countries,
in many fields of life.
"It would make all those WRONG
who consider it a necessary and normal part of their daily activities
to face and handle suppression, and
to help others to face it so that they can have a better life."
(see RI-766i 'The Hidden Serenity Doctrine - VERY IMPORTANT' of 27 Dec 96
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-766i.htm)
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make others wrong?
[Jutta:]
"It would make all those WRONG LFBD
who like to communicate to Koos! LFBD
"It would make Koos WRONG for his care for Mankind!
"It would make those wrong
who have A-R-C [true Affinity, Reality and Communication] for life, and
who have A-R-C for their family and for Mankind!
"It would make those WRONG
who daily assist other people's survival!" LFBD
[Solo-Auditor:] How would "I will not communicate to Koos"
make you right?
[Jutta:]
"It makes me feel 'right' ['nothing wrong with me']
for having created here a situation of decay
[because 'I will not communicate to Koos'], LFBDBD
but there is nothing right about it. LFBDBD
"It is decay and destruction brought about BY ME.
"I perceive that this decision of mine in 1788
- to have personally ceased to LFBD
handle suppression of life, LFBDBDBD
and instead using no confront and no responsibility -
I have later 'explained away'
as 'my "being unable to", "incapable of" handling suppression',
but
THIS IS A CHEAP AND MEAN COVER-UP
SO THAT I CAN CONTINUE TO CARRY ON MY DECISION OF 1788
[into later] lifetimes,
[carrying forward my decision to be irresponsible for others
after my lifetime as Benjamin Franklin]. LFBDBD
"I am NOT incapable [of handling suppression].
I [just] didn't WANT to."
LFBDBDBDBDBD-F/Nind [= truth established]
'Jutta Nolst Trenite'
Total session time: 3 hrs 11 min
Motto of the 'Resolving Domination Series' (RDS):
"Koos is giving much more life than all other beings I know.
I want to be in communication with Koos."
(Jutta's own viewpoint in 1977 for joining Koos)
* (see RI-541i 'Correct and Joyful Confessional Procedure - I' 20 Apr 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-541i.htm
and following parts II, III, IV)
** [Definition of 'Solo-Auditor':
Someone who writes down his own confession
in response to given questions,
with the purpose to release emotional charge and aberrations.]
*** (The abbreviations sF(small Fall), F(Fall), LF(Long Fall), LFBD(Long
Fall Blow Down) and F/N(Floating Needle) describe reactions on the
E-meter, indicating mental charge (sF, F, LF, LFBD), and release of
charge completed (F/N).
"LFBD-F/N" = truth found out. "ind" = indicated to the person.)
(see RI-610i 'Understanding the E-meter, correctly' of 26 June 1996
RI-648i 'Simplicity of E-meter use, by UNDERSTANDING it' 1 Aug 96
RI-687i 'Notes on E-meter use and Solo-Auditing' of 4 Sept 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-687i.htm)
Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind
Copyright 1997 by Koos Nolst Trenite
Editors: Freya Nolst Trenite and Blair Wiley
Final Editor: Koos Nolst Trenite
Supervision and publication requested by Jutta Nolst Trenite
Actions and Publication ordered by Ambassador for Mankind
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References (available also at the Library "http://Art-Org.com/"):
- About the being L. Ron Hubbard and Jutta
RI-940i '"L. Ron Hubbard is an idiot" as Jutta's "Solution" to life'
RI-789i 'PROPAGANDA of L. Ron Hubbard almost exposed July 1994' 6 Feb 1997
RI-743i '"Winning" and "Overwhelming" done by L. Ron Hubbard' of 11 Nov 96
RI-476Ri 'Gruesome Truth You Don't Believe About L. Ron Hubbard' 6 Feb 1996
RI-907i 'A glimpse of spiritual warfare' of 16 July 1997
RI-632i 'The being L. Ron Hubbard, Current State' of 14 July 1996
RI-634i 'The Operating Satan L. Ron Hubbard' of 12 July 1996
RI-645i 'The Operating Satan L. Ron Hubbard, more evidence' of 1 Aug 1996
RI-588i 'Resolving Betrayal by L. Ron Hubbard - I' of 31 May 1996
...
RI-652i 'Resolving Betrayal by L. Ron Hubbard - Part IX' of 31 June 1996
- About Benjamin Franklin
RI-133i 'Benjamin Franklin's right to NOT be' of 31 Mar 1995
RI-647i 'Benjamin Franklin returning from France - Part I' of 30 July 1996
RI-656i 'Benjamin Franklin returning from France - Part II' of 30 July 96
RI-674i 'Benjamin Franklin returning from France - Part III' of 30 July 96
- About Jutta
RI-958i 'Jutta: Running away is being dominated completely' of 23 Aug 97
RI-956i 'Jutta: Validating Evil by NOT communicating about it' of 25 Aug 97
RI-954i 'Jutta: "Be with Koos - or let all be dominated by Scientology"'
RI-955i 'Jutta: DENYING COMMUNICATION about sorrow, fear, pain or evil'
RI-947i 'Jutta's Determination to Punish L. Ron Hubbard FOREVER' 18 Aug 97
RI-943i 'Jutta: "Don't face evil - Destroy Koos instead" - I' of 17 Aug 97
RI-944i 'Jutta: "Don't face evil - Destroy Koos instead" - II' of 17 Aug 97
RI-945i 'Jutta: "Don't face evil - Destroy Koos instead" - III' 17 Aug 97
RI-946i 'Jutta: "Don't face evil - Destroy Koos instead" - IV' of 18 Aug 97
RI-818i 'Diana Ross: Facing Jutta, the painter' of 2 Apr 1997
RI-521i 'On Jutta's Refusal to Help Mankind effectively' 20 Mar 1996
- About RI-Bulletins
RI-380Ri 'Obtaining Truth from the RI-Bulletins' of 1 Nov 1995
RI-50RQi 'RI-xxxi series Archive - Content and Use' 28 Dec 94
Revised and Replaced on 6 March 1996
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