8 January 1998
RI-993i 'The Joy and Beauty of Destroying Self and Others - Understood'
from Ambassador for Mankind
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"IN that condition, however,
Jutta uses
any tricks and all her intelligence and
also the memory of achievements she had
while OUT of that condition,
in order to with it enforce on people
that she still would be a
decent, responsible, caring person,
even though she
is now IN that condition
and
is now a devil in disguise,
who does nothing else but secretly
destroying decency,
hating life and
despising and hating people and herself, and
hating with most vehemence and
vast salvos of precisely placed spiritual attacks,
those who do genuinely care for others or for her."
'Ambassador for Mankind'
Session(*) on 6 January 1998, 19:41 GMT,
about Jutta Nolst Trenite.
[Koos:] What is Jutta hiding about her considering it
"joyful and beautiful" to destroy me?
[Auditor(*):]
"That Jutta considers that
it 'makes me (Koos) stronger in facing her (Jutta's) evil'."
(see RI-15i 'Recent Sessions with LRH on Miscavige' of 26 Oct 1994
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-015i.htm)
[Koos:] What is Jutta hiding about her considering it
"joyful and beautiful" to destroy me?
[Auditor:]
"That Jutta considers that
THEN you, Koos, see
that you are NOT harmed by being totally destroyed,
but that you THEN
can 'enjoy yourself in life' - as she does, if left alone -
WITHOUT having to face and oppose
suppression and Suppressive Persons(**)."
[Koos:] So she is doing me a favor by her destroying me,
so that I also can become
"invulnerable" and
"enjoy myself without facing and opposing suppression."
She has decided, again and again, to be like that,
and she wants me to experience the same "joy".
And she also tried to do that
in the Watermill (1984) to me
after she went into Hubbard's "Serenity"
by reading Hubbard's book 'Hymn of Asia'
in order to STOP saying "No" to Napoleon -
which courage I just had restored to her
with yearlong work
resulting in her being again
a causative, ethical person,
but hiding it from me, and being so only for half an hour,
as she wants to compulsively hide
that she also CAN be decent and courageous and
as she wants to rather again, as soon as possible,
destroy all her courage, and rather
be "invulnerable" to the evil of a Napoleon Bonaparte.
The Motto being:
"Just let everything be taken away from you,
destroy
all your native decency and
all your desire to care for others, and
you still make yourself feel 'proud and great and happy',
and THEN
anybody can do anything to you,
and as a bonus
you can be the greatest 'friends' with anybody,
even with the most vicious criminal
who just raped and murdered your kids,
because
you don't mind how evil he is to you
or whether he destroys
all your life and decency and care for others:
He 'can't do that'
because
you have already destroyed
those things and qualities yourself -
or ASKED the help of others
to show you and make you experience
how 'pleasant' it is to have all of you destroyed -
while still being 'proud and happy',
and so you are 'invulnerable'
- 'nobody can do anything to you'."
"Now let me help you"
- Jutta says, for instance in 1984
in the Watermill where we just got a beautiful house -
"to also experience that 'joy and beauty'
of being 'proud and happy and invulnerable':
Let me destroy
your possessions and activities and
your goals and aliveness and joy of beauty, and
your native decency and
your desire to care for others,
and
you be friends even with the most ugly and evil persons and
you don't look at their intentions at all,
but just receive them as if they are your best friends."
Jutta tries to do this most of the time,
her whole lifetime and earlier lifetimes.
[Koos:] What is Jutta hiding about her considering it
"joyful and beautiful" to destroy me?
[Auditor:]
"That Jutta considers that
when she has destroyed you, Koos,
THEN YOU DON'T DISAGREE with
Jutta's own refusal to have any possessions, and with
her own refusal to follow her own native decency, and with
her own refusal to care for others including herself, and with
her own desire to see and treat as 'friends' those
who destroy those qualities in her, and
then you don't disagree with
her own desire to enforce this doctrine on others, and with
her own desire to join together with and use Suppressive Persons
in order to keep this doctrine enforced on herself
when someone - like you, Koos - again gets her to be
decent and
caring for people and
wanting to have possessions,
and
when she has destroyed you, Koos,
THEN YOU DON'T DISAGREE WITH
her own desire to call
those who do so, who, like Koos, do get people to
again be decent, caring and desiring to live,
to call THOSE
'evil' and
to strongly resent their
'SPOILING her enjoying herself in life' and
'SPOILING her feeling of being invulnerable and proud and happy'."
[Koos:] What is Jutta hiding about her considering it
"joyful and beautiful" to destroy me?
[Auditor:]
"She is hiding that she wants to get
admiration from you, Koos,
FOR having done that to you - many times -
with greater or lesser success:
Admiration
for how cleverly and forcefully
she has tried to destroy you
and tricked you into losing your aliveness."
[Koos:] What is Jutta hiding about her considering it
"joyful and beautiful" to destroy me?
[Auditor:]
"She hides that
when she destroys you, Koos,
then you will also experience and understand
how 'beautiful and joyful' SHE finds it
to be 'dead'
and without possessions
and without decency
and without care for others, and
how 'great' one can feel then."
[Note by Koos:
She was successfully enforcing this on me in the Watermill
after I got her sane for half an hour,
opposing Napoleon's evil for the first time since 200 years,
and then
she wanted to be, secretly, of course, insane again,
and read Hubbard's book 'Hymn of Asia',
[and after reading it]
she claimed that she
"got really sane,
invulnerable,
having achieved the mastery of the universe and of life"
- but she could suddenly not Audit me,
- she could not face an E-meter,
- she could not face me,
- she could not face that I had
any problems or activities and goals.
She was just beautifully, joyfully "dead",
refusing to have
any possessions,
any decency or
any care for others,
but feeling 'really great and invulnerable'.
I did not know what struck me -
or whether anything struck me.
She voiced that she also wanted me to have that state.
I did NOT know what struck me.
I had not the faintest idea, in 1984.
But she proceeded to ruin
every possession and
any installation and
living condition and
spiritual condition,
and
she got me so forcefully and cleverly into apathy
that I just was
walking in the meadows and
doing some paintings and
occasionally repairing the exhaust of my car, and
playing with the first home computer programming
- 'she would certainly care to get things going again,
in her "super state" of
invulnerability, total cause over life'.
I am sorry to tell you,
but that's how it was,
till the whole living space and set-up
was completely destroyed by her
- which was EXACTLY her HIDDEN intention
to do to me and herself.
When I would protest that "She makes it all ugly",
she most violently accused ME
of spoiling HER fun, of stopping her.
We had a slightly different concept of fun
- as you can imagine.
But she was HIDING her concept -
PRETENDING she wanted
a beautiful place to live and
activities and aliveness and truth and agreement.
PRETENDED ONLY.
INTENTIONALLY USING UP OUR LAST MONEY
in order to spend it on
INTENTIONALLY unsuccessful sales actions and sales travel.
INTENTIONALLY selling paintings secretly far below cost.
INTENTIONALLY getting the telephone cut off, etc.
But all that cleverly hidden as "unavoidable":
Still being "totally cause and invulnerable."]
[Koos:] What is Jutta hiding about her considering it
"joyful and beautiful" to destroy me?
[Auditor:]
"When you, Koos, are destroyed,
THEN you have
'no troubles and
no worries and
no L. Ron Hubbard's (psychotic, vicious liars) to think about'
and
THEN you can 'at last do what you actually want to do',
like play music or paint
and be admired regardless of
what good or evil or ugliness
you are doing to others and to yourself."
[Koos:] What is Jutta hiding about her considering it
"joyful and beautiful" to destroy me?
[Auditor:]
"When you, Koos, are destroyed,
then you 'also don't have to handle her (Jutta) anymore',
you can just admire her.
"(Which is all she - in this state - wants out of life:
Give and receive admiration -
preferably from the body's life-field only (sexual)
so that one does not even have to face the owner of the body,
but gets admiration-energy
directly from the body and from other bodies.)"
[Koos:] WHAT IS TOO UGLY TO LOOK AT
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"That it is not at all true
that you will, like that, enjoy yourself in life!
ACTUALLY - in that state -
you will hate life, will hate yourself, will hate others!"
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"That she ENFORCES that attitude on others
WITH GREAT SPIRITUAL FORCE
to make it seem to others
as really being 'beautiful and joyful' what she does.
"That she, WITH GREAT SPIRITUAL FORCE,
HIDES
the extreme ugliness and
extreme hate of herself and of others and
the tremendous amount of lies that she tells
about herself and others,
about what they actually are and do and achieve in life and
about what actual good intentions others have for others in life,
and
her HIDING that she executes
only the intention to destroy life,
and
her HIDING that she hates anybody
who does create life and
who is decent and
who does care for others,
and
her HIDING that she
actually refuses to care for anybody and that she
only shows, radiates and enforces on others
her 'beauty and joy' of experiencing and 'living' this condition
of complete irresponsibility and very joyful insanity.
(see RI-972Si 'Hidden but Executed Intentions of the paintress Jutta'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-972si.htm)
"She is HIDING
all the hate for herself and for others and
all the lies and meanness that she puts on others and
all the lies that she tells others and herself
about her own achievements and conditions, etc.
"She does not show,
but also HIDES, with great spiritual force,
exerted on herself and on others,
that that - the hate, lies and viciousness -
is part of the condition, this state, and
that that is the only way
the condition can be achieved and maintained!
"In this way, entirely by spiritual enforcement,
she makes many people believe
that she is 'beautiful and kind and strong and admirable',
instead of what she really is:
An extreme devil
in a spiritual criminal disguise,
when she is in this condition.
(In which she is 350 days a year.
And that since four lifetimes.)"
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"That she says 'it is "good and beautiful" to destroy others'
ONLY in order to continue destroying others
unhindered by those who don't look through the
'beauty' and 'goodness' and 'responsibility' of
secretly destroying others' lives.
"And the condition stems ONLY from
her having been, and being,
too big a coward to maintain or put back her own decency,
too big a coward to care for others and
too big a coward to protect her own possessions and
too big a coward to stand up for her own goals
and for what she likes and dislikes."
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"With her PRETENDED 'joy and beauty',
she is destroying her ACTUAL joy and beauty and that of others.
"And her life mainly, if not only,
consists of efforts
to try and dominate people
into accepting such a condition of
hidden hate and hidden lies and
hidden destruction of life, decency and care
AS IF it is a 'beautiful and joyful' condition to be in.
To try and force people to
be in the same condition as she is."
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"Her tangible [experiencable] 'JOY'
of having done so to others in the past,
for instance to her own daughter, Freya, for a while, in 1986."
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"Her refusing to look at her ACTUAL intentions,
her refusing to look at actual CONSEQUENCES
of destroying (stopping, making inactive)
a person's decency and good intentions.
"The extreme spiritual force
with which she is
secretly defending and
secretly making right
her cowardice, and
with which she is
making others into
equal cowards, hateful persons and liars
as she is herself in this condition."
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"That she ONLY does this
because she refuses to admit
how big a coward she was and is."
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"That in this state
she refuses to see
that she also could, instead, be decent and caring
if she would
admit to having been
an extreme coward, indecent and very destructive person
in the past,
admitting it to herself and others
that it is the case,
and
admitting that she needs, and
making sure for herself that she gets,
constant help from others
in order NOT to be an extreme coward,
indecent and destructive person."
(see RI-988i 'Spiritual Criminal "Friendship" versus Intending Decency'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-988i.htm)
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"Her ASKING individuals who are in that state or condition,
like the being L. Ron Hubbard and Richard Reiss,
to put her BACK in that 'joyful', 'invulnerable' state
after I, Koos, got her out of it,
because
when she is OUT of it,
she does see, but is too big a coward to admit -
the enormous destruction to life and to people
that she has caused while she was IN that state,
and therefore
she goes to, joins or waits for such individuals
who again make her - just as she forcefully does to others
when she is IN that state -
unaware
of her own decency and
of times that she did care for people
and DID create life and HAD possessions
and WAS genuinely interested in others,
so that she
does not have to admit, and feel the pain of,
times
when she was in that condition
and 'joyfully and beautifully' destroyed all life with it.
"IN that condition, however,
she uses
any tricks and all her intelligence and
also the memory of achievements she made
while OUT of that condition,
in order to with it enforce on people
that she still would be a
decent, responsible, caring person,
even though she
is now IN that condition
and
is now a devil in disguise, as described above,
who does nothing else but secretly
destroying decency,
hating life and
despising and hating people and herself, and
hating with most vehemence and
vast salvos of precisely placed spiritual attacks,
those who do genuinely care for others or for her."
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful and responsible"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"That she wants to be admired for
how 'extremely strong' and
how 'very brave' and
how 'great' she is and
how 'courageous' she is
for forcing that extreme ugliness onto herself.
"And she wants to be admired
that she is so 'brave and courageous' - 'others would not dare' -
in showing and presenting that most ugly condition
as 'beautiful and joyful':
"Most people are NOT that 'courageous'
to force such extreme ugliness and destruction upon themselves,
most people would not have the 'courage, bravery and strength'
TO BE TORMENTED AND CONFUSED THAT MUCH and
TO BE DRIVEN THAT INSANE by themselves and by other evil people.
"So it really shows
how very 'strong and brave' she is
- and much 'stronger' and 'braver'
than most people would be willing to endure.
"They would not even have the 'courage'
to cut off their own ear
[as in Jutta's lifetime as Vincent van Gogh].
"Or, most people would not have the 'courage'
to intentionally destroy life.
"Most people would not have the 'courage'
to intentionally betray and destroy their best friend,
and make themselves so ugly as to enjoy it.
"Most people would NOT have the 'courage and strength'
to intentionally
let themselves be robbed of half a million dollars,
made to do indecent and ugly things and
betray their own friends and their own goals and
steal from them
when another evil person invites them to do so.
"Most people would NOT have the 'courage'
to be mean and ugly and lying to their friends,
would NOT have the 'strength' to do so.
"Most people would NOT have the 'strength and courage'
to deny and to intentionally not use
the abilities they do have that would
help people and themselves.
"And this shows and proves - Jutta actually said in words -
how much more 'courageous' she is than most other people,
and it certainly shows
how much 'stronger' she is
than almost all civil citizens
who would never dare to do such things
even if they occasionally thought of it.
"This also shows and proves,
at least to herself when she is in that condition
and to the spiritual co-criminals who enforce it on each other,
that she is much better than others
who would NOT dare doing it,
and even better than her co-criminals
because of her strength and intelligence
in doing vicious, mean, ugly and treacherous things 'successfully', and
in hiding it from and misrepresenting it TO NORMAL PEOPLE,
with enormous cleverness and many layers of
cover-ups to cover up other cover-ups.
"So that, when a normal person thinks he
has figured her out,
has understood her evil,
he is only looking at another cover-up,
amounting to hundreds of layers of cover-ups,
all extremely forcefully and cleverly put there
and held there with perfect and well-played pretenses
to cover-up and keep in place pretenses.
"A good part of the cover-up consists of
assigning causes of the destruction of life that you see,
assigning it first to decent people - so you blame them -
and
when those layers are penetrated,
when you have found those out
as NOT the actual causes of the destruction of life,
then assigning the causes
to co-criminals, and
then assigning causes for the destruction of life
to past experiences with co-criminals -
and there are millions and millions of years of
past with co-criminals to assign it to!"
[Note by Koos:
In other words:
People in this condition are chinese puzzles,
unless you have read this RI-Bulletin.]
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"Her forcefully keeping this condition up
without looking at
what she is missing out on,
what she is destroying,
what actual beauty she is destroying."
[Koos:] What is too ugly to look at
about what Jutta considers "joyful and beautiful"
in destroying herself, me and others?
[Auditor:]
"And that she ONLY is doing it
in order TO PROVE HOW 'STRONG AND COURAGEOUS' SHE IS
(strong in exerting evil and destruction and insanity and meanness
and psychosis and unawareness and false admiration).
"And then, by this FALSE show of 'courage in evil',
she does not have to admit
what an extreme, extreme coward she is,
(a coward, as is any psychotic, as is any criminal
and as is any Suppressive Person)."
Total session time: 2 hrs 19 mins
On 7 January 1997, 11:10 GMT:
[Koos:] Jutta also exhibits the 'bravery', the 'courage'
to intentionally refuse to face and to handle
objects, energy and force of the physical universe
which of course ARE working
upon her and upon her body and
upon others and upon their bodies and
upon life and
which HAVE to be faced and handled for the communication of
truth, evidence and proof,
evidence provided by the actions of a person,
of Jutta in this case,
that are visible in the physical universe,
no matter
what she pretends
or wants seen different,
or wants seen exactly reversed,
in her 'invulnerable' condition.
Physical universe evidence is hard evidence.
Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind
Copyright 1998 by Koos Nolst Trenite
* ('Auditor': Someone who carefully listens.)
[Definition of 'Auditing':
Confessional in response to given questions,
with the purpose to release emotional charge and aberrations.]
(see RI-541i 'Correct and Joyful Confessional Procedure - I' 20 Apr 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-541i.htm)
** (For Definitions of 'Suppressive Person'
see the 'Understanding Suppression Series' [USP-series]
at http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/usp.htm )
Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind
Copyright 1998 by Koos Nolst Trenite
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Personal Web-Library:
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Library Search Engine:
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References (available also at the Library "http://Art-Org.com/"):
- About the Spiritual Criminal game
RI-990i 'Spiritual Criminal Code of Honor - "Self-determinism"' 2 Jan 98
RI-989i 'Marie-Louise's sex with Napoleon - Enforcing Ugly Admiration'
RI-987i 'Making a World of Spiritual Sanity and Freedom' of 26 Dec 1997
RI-988i 'Spiritual Criminal "Friendship" versus Intending Decency'
RI-985i 'Vicious Spiritual Evil of Richard Reiss Not Faced - VITAL VITAL'
RI-984i 'The Criminal Mind - Cowards Don't Dare Create Life - VITAL DATA'
RI-981i 'Jutta RUNNING AWAY - from facing Reiss driving her insane'
RI-978i 'The Wall of Shame - Remedy of Hell, Jutta, Socrates, Black Magic'
- About Sanity and Facing Evil
RI-449i 'A Rule For Freedom' of 14 Jan 1996
RI-714i 'State of Sanity, Definition of' of 24 Oct 1996
RI-537i 'The Right to Demand Awareness' of 15 Apr 1996
RI-929i 'Simple Detection: "Sane or Insane?"' of 11 Sept 1997
RI-962i 'The Master Path to Life - Platonism understood' of 1 Nov 97
RI-908i 'The Ostrich-factor - on facing evil or criminality' 16 Jul 97
RI-974i 'Truth about "Not putting attention on evil of others"' 27 Nov 97
- About Helping People, Care, Responsibility
RI-592i 'How To Look At People' of 5 June 1996
RI-781BPI 'Raising Children - or Keeping Them Small?' of 16 Jan 1997
RI-631i 'Definition of "Woman"' of 12 July 1996
RI-629i 'Definition of "Care"' of 12 July 1996
RI-602i 'Definition of Power' of 20 June 1996
RI-801i '"You can never leave" - The spiritual universe' of 14 Mar 1997
RI-785i 'On Not Remedying Disagreements - "Not Talking"' of 24 Jan 1997
- About RI-Bulletins
RI-380Ri 'Obtaining Truth from the RI-Bulletins' of 1 Nov 1995
RI-50RQi 'RI-xxxi series Archive - Content and Use' 28 Dec 94
Revised and Replaced on 6 March 1996
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