11 January 1998
RI-994i 'Becoming an Operating Spirit - Example of FACING life'
from Ambassador for Mankind
Message # RI-994i for Internet
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'Then there are no
"areas of life one does not look at", anymore. There is no
"I should not look at people", anymore. There is no
"I should not find out or be interested in people", anymore.
And so a VAST AREA OF LIFE OPENS UP FOR YOU
- TO REALLY ENJOY, TO REALLY BE ALIVE.'
'Ambassador for Mankind'
In order to really be
your very true, capable,
caring, interested, causative self,
- to be an Operating Spirit, that is -
you will have to
actually, really see
what spiritual criminals really are doing and
what they really are intending and
what they really are hiding.
There is NO SHORTCUT to being happy and causative.
The "being causative" that is offered
in various training programs, therapy, Auditing, Karate, etc., etc.,
for self-development and self-confidence
is not that.
Such courses or therapies or practices
are not making people causative and really caring
to the extent that they don't teach and practice facing
real, actual life, facing
the real, actual, hidden intentions of others, facing
the life-destroying thought-games of the spiritual criminal.
In fact, many therapies and practices
teach you to achieve "self-confidence" by NOT facing life.
They teach you to be an unknowing, happy, "causative" slave.
So if you do achieve some "power"
through such training or therapy or "Operating-Thetan-Levels",
then its use is either to dominate others spiritually
- which is destructive and evil "power" only,
and is also self-destructive -
or when you do use spiritual power properly
- for the survival of others - then,
you lose it suddenly
because you do not face
the hidden spiritual criminality of others,
and
you become trapped in their spiritual criminal game
by their use of admiration and pretense and
"arguments" not to face their true evil,
and so not to face life.
All these courses, training, and therapy
do not get you to be an Operating Spirit,
or only momentarily,
or give and validate
a very false pretense of, a reversal
and mockery of being a free spirit,
a run-away-from-life
- and people in that state
are actually fully dominated and
destroy existing life, as we now know so well.
You become an Operating Spirit
by looking, really facing what spiritual criminals do,
facing them
NOT with the intention
to make them more evil or
to use their evil for your own "profit",
facing them
NOT with the intention
to leave them in their state of criminality,
but
FACING THEM with your intention
to allow them to be made decent.
Below, you will find a real-life example
of a very good process
to get you and others in command of
freely facing evil
instead of shrinking away from it.
It gives an enormous boost
in your own personality,
to really be aware of and responsible for people,
like an Operating Spirit would do.
Really being aware of and responsible
for real people,
as they really are,
and not as what they pretend they are,
or as what you are "allowed to look at."
The phrase "can never be made decent", in the process below,
is just a statement of spiritual criminals
to tell you, to convince you,
that it is no use to face evil.
We found this statement as a key to a spiritual criminal,
and that's why I made it into a processing question.
With that statement ("can never be made decent"),
they justify continuing to be criminal:
"No use to stop their criminality
- 'they are evil anyway',"
"No use either for themselves to stop by themselves
- 'they can't be made decent',"
WHICH IS A TOTAL LIE,
but these spiritual criminals want to enforce it on you
so that YOU would give up or would not even want to start
handling them,
so that YOU decide it is no use even to face them.
In other words:
THEY DESPERATELY SEEK AND NEED
YOUR AGREEMENT TO STAY CRIMINAL.
And that is the essence
of the spiritual criminal game!
Without your agreement,
their criminal game breaks down.
They know that.
(see RI-988i 'Spiritual Criminal "Friendship" versus Intending Decency'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-988i.htm
RI-808i '"Be nothing" is NOT survival - Steve Biko' of 24 Mar 1997
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-808i.htm)
Your facing such things
makes YOU into an Operating Spirit
who is very much being himself,
and - CONTRARY to currently sold beliefs and available practices -
the State of being an Operating Spirit
entirely depends on
your ability
to face, and maintain a decent viewpoint on,
the hidden spiritual criminality of others.
And they have a bunch of tricks,
of "very convincing arguments",
spiritual attacks,
types of mental energy projections, etc.,
to make it "very clear to you"
that you would not WANT to be an Operating Spirit,
especially not one who is interested in them, in spiritual criminals!
Session(*) on 9 January 1998, 10:59 GMT,
about Jutta Nolst Trenite.
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
[Auditor(*):]
"Her betraying you sexually,
and very viciously hiding it from you when she was found,
each time when she was
Blown [had run away and was in hiding]. LFBD's(**)
[Note by Koos:
It was, and is, her use of sex -
to use sex
to destroy her own viewpoint on herself (decency, conscience),
to prove that she cannot and does not want to be made decent,
to use sex
to destroy the viewpoint (decency, conscience) of another on herself
(whom she bombards with 'how great and admirable she is'
while in real life
doing nothing but destroying herself and others)
by generating and receiving
admiration-energy from the body's life-field,
pretending it to be admiration from or for
the person, the spirit, who owns the body.
And "when one receives admiration from another
one is good."
And "when one is receiving admiration even from a very evil person,
one is very good",
The admiration makes that
"all one's destructive purposes and actions
are 'good', feel 'good'."
This is why and how Jutta has secret, evil sex,
right now, and earlier, while run away and hiding.
And this is why she secretly
WANTS to have sex with very evil persons.]
[Auditor:]
"Her wanting, 'enjoying' to let
Suppressive Persons [see Footnote]
do whatever they want with her.
[Note by Koos:
Like seeing, by telepathic means,
that a potential buyer
has an evil purpose about wanting secret sex,
and she also likes secret sex,
and offers it to him
with the promise to never tell anybody
- if he buys that expensive painting.
That's one of her many ways
of making beautiful paintings ugly,
and the possession of paintings ugly,
and of making life ugly.
And then she brings the money to me,
with an air of 'greatness and power'.
I had not the faintest idea
that she would be WANTING to do such things
AND be so determined and capable of hiding it from me,
and to want to destroy her communication to me,
and thereby her sanity and our life together,
by hiding what she did.
This was in May 1981, in Esslingen (town in Germany).
I only found out today,
because we started to roll this thing back
to where Jutta secretly practiced
this kind of evil secret sex,
which she is practicing right now,
and since three months in hiding.
And she had of course to throw a lot of evil thoughts at me
to make it OK for her to hide it from me already in 1981.
Thoughts like:
I would want her to do such things
because I want to have paintings sold,
so actually I would be evil to her
by wanting her to be successful, etc.
(She did not cut her ear off, yet,
to show how evil it is to ask of her to do
survival things like getting her paintings sold.
Maybe that will still come.)
Anyway, you know her game, from RI-993i.]
(see RI-993i 'The Joy and Beauty of Destroying Self and Others - Understood'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-993i.htm)
Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up(****)
"Or her using Suppressive Persons
in order for herself to be evil to others, to decent people."
[Koos:] Which is what she is doing right now.
In hiding,
she is living secretly with a Suppressive Person
whom she uses as a Black Magic sex-partner
in order to have support from sexual energy
to better and more unrestrained project her
intentions to destroy life
and her
trickery and her utterly confused "reasons" and "data"
and her
'how-much-she-would-like-to-help-us-if-she-could'
and her projecting
deceptive sensations and images and dulling admiration
towards me and others.
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about ANOTHER,
that another could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"Her being destroyed by the between-lives Implanters on Mars, in 1790
- the Implanters could never be made decent.
(see RI-833i 'Between-lives Implanter on Mars' of 22 Apr 1997
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-833i.htm)
Tone-Arm Blow-Down
and then Tone-Arm Blow-Up
"Left out by her is the fact that she herself
DECIDED to be destroyed,
WANTED her awareness of herself and her good intentions
be destroyed by them."
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
WIDE INSTANT F/N [= very big truth suddenly came to view]
[Auditor:]
"It [the WIDE INSTANT F/N] was on me looking just now at
JUTTA trying to
disagree with you, Koos,
with your being yourself, and
with your being responsible for people and future, and
with your having a wide mental space,
Jutta, now, [with huge avalanches of sexual admiration-energy
thrown at me by her, with her Black Magic use of sex (Note by Koos)]
trying to disagree
with your being an Operating Spirit,
which you were, again, while you, earlier this morning, re-read
RI-993i 'The Joy and Beauty of Destroying Self and Others - Understood'
(http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-993i.htm).
Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
"These E-meter reads are on
me, just now, DISAGREEING with Jutta's trying that on you.
"It was Jutta who was trying,
this morning
when I saw you reading that RI-Bulletin (RI-993i) again,
to make ME think that I
'don't like that RI-Bulletin and
don't like to send it to the friends you mentioned'."
F/N
Tone-Arm Blow-Up
Tone-Arm Blow-Down
(E-meter Reads of Jutta, protesting our sending the RI-993i to friends.)
[Koos:] I find that sex-character that Jutta secretly lives with, now,
very unpleasant to look at, very ugly.
Tone-Arm Blow-Up
and then Tone-Arm Blow-Down
[Auditor:]
"This morning Jutta's [excuse, her trick, was:]
'Koos,
DON'T have a wide mental space and DON'T be yourself'
[don't be an Operating Spirit], Tone-Arm Blow-Up
because
'then you would not be able
to see how really evil I, Jutta, am'.
"Jutta wanting it seen that
'her indecent intentions
would be too unreal to a decent person to see'.
[Note by Koos:
And so a decent person would not be able to make her decent,
and an indecent person only would observe it,
but would not want to make her decent, would not disagree.
In other words, she means to say:
'Leave me be a criminal forever'.]
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down's
and Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up's
"Jutta wanting it seen that
your INTENDING Jutta to be decent
already means
that you DON'T see how strong her intention to be INDECENT is,
because it would be too unreal to you
[the fact that she JUST DOES NOT WANT TO be decent].
"Jutta wanting it seen that
if you WOULD see
how strong Jutta's intention to be INDECENT is,
then you would stop intending her to be decent
because you would consider it too hard to make her decent.
"Jutta wanting it seen that
only if you would [also] be indecent,
would you be able to understand her evil intentions.
"Jutta wanting it seen that
only if you have those evil intentions yourself,
would you be willing to accept as truth
that those intentions do indeed exist in Jutta.
Wide F/N(**)
"Jutta wanting it seen that
a decent person would NOT be able to make Jutta sane.
"If a decent person compares his own intentions to Jutta's,
Jutta thinks that the decent person would decide or conclude
that her evil intentions are too evil
- for her to be made decent.
"So she argues that for THAT reason
she does not want that you compare
her evil intentions
with
your own good intentions.
Wide Instant F/N
"Because then it would SHOW UP
that Jutta is 'too evil to be made decent'.
F/N
"It would then seem - so Jutta's plea -
that Jutta HAS no good intentions."
F/N
[Koos:] Because, of course,
only when you DO know and keep firmly in mind
that Jutta DOES have good intentions,
can you make her decent, and
are you willing to make her decent.
So now we know what the 'Wide Instant F/N' was on:
Jutta argues, as her reason for destroying Koos,
that she does not WANT Koos to be decent,
because "then he would not be able and willing to make her sane."
[Note by Koos:
Now I wonder how many of these arguments
you have fallen for.]
[Auditor:]
"It seems to her
[she likes to trick you into accepting (Note by Koos)],
that when you try to LOOK at her evil intentions,
THEN she has no good intentions.
"And Jutta is afraid
that you think that she has no good intentions."
[Note by Koos:
All very clever tricks, we know so well of her,
to make you agree
how harmful FOR HER
- and for your purpose to make her sane and decent -
it is
IF YOU DO LOOK AT HER - AT HOW SHE REALLY IS.]
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about ANOTHER,
that another could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"It is about Richard Reiss. LF's
(see RI-985i 'Vicious Spiritual Evil of Richard Reiss Not Faced - VITAL'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-985i.htm)
Rock-Slam(****)
"Jutta thinks Richard Reiss is too evil to be made decent.
"Richard Reiss also WANTS
that others think that of him:
That he is too evil to be made decent.
"Because he wants to STAY INSANE."
[Koos:] Now I understand more of
Jutta's screaming "Please help me", sometimes, to me.
Then SHE WANTS TO think
that she has only evil intentions and
that she would need someone else
to know, and tell her, that she also has good intentions.
Then she does not totally refuse to control her evil intentions,
and at least asks that another controls them for her.
Which is indeed much, much better
than not controlling them at all!
It's like an alcoholic asking you
to please take the bottle away from him.
Well, you better do so,
and then you see how to take it from there.
(see RI-58Ri 'Fair Game Series - Treatment of Enemies' of 1 Jan 95
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-058ri.htm)
[Auditor:]
"Jutta also thinks
that 'she herself is too evil
to make herself decent [to care for her own sanity]'.
That 'she has too little Affinity for herself
to do so, to want to do so'."
[Note by Koos:
These are NOT STATEMENTS OF INTENTIONS.
They are statements of conditions
which are the RESULTS OF INTENTIONS.
They are more, very clever tricks and very true excuses
to make you NOT see her actual INTENTIONS -
like her WANTING TO BE
as criminal to others and as ugly to herself
as she feels like being, and
wanting it without restraint,
enjoying to give in to any criminal impulse,
enjoying NOT to restrain such impulses:
"Life is but a game -
others are only there to provide admiration for her,
and can drop dead afterwards -
there are billions of people -
an endless supply."
(Don't blame me if this sounds like L. Ron Hubbard -
Jutta and he have very similar evil intentions.)]
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"Her intention to stay insane. LFBD
"More:
"In 1788, her decision
to have no responsibility for others anymore.
[In order to refuse to admit
that the decision was entirely evil,
she decided that actually
'Others to do not deserve to be helped'.]"
(see RI-941i 'Benjamin Franklin's fatal decision of 1788' of 24 Oct 1997
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-941i.htm)
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about ANOTHER,
that another could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"On Miscavige.
In the Miscavige [97 billion years ago] incident -
what he did there
means that he is too evil to be made decent."
(see RI-820i 'Diana Ross: Facing the mad, angry Miscavige' of 3 Apr 1997
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-820i.htm)
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"Her intention not to be interested in others." LF
[Now I would like you to take note that
THAT IS THE MAIN INTENTION
THAT KEEPS HER INSANE!
If she would have some interest in others,
other than as admiration-machines for her,
if she would actually be interested in others,
then she would have a reason
to restrain her evil impulses. (Note by Koos)]
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about ANOTHER,
that another could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"Her father Emperor Franz of Austria,
telling her to marry Napoleon Bonaparte, 1810, France."
[Now, he was not an evil guy.
But Jutta MAKES him seem evil,
in order not to have to admit to herself
that she was and is
too big a coward
to say "No" to Metternich, or to Napoleon,
too big a coward even
to say "No" to her beloved father.
You begin to see that this
"can never be made decent"
is just an excuse to be evil. (Note by Koos)]
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
and then Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"Her rather WANTING to be WITH Suppressive Persons, [as now],
than to say 'No' to them." LFBD
(see RI-993i 'The Joy and Beauty of Destroying Self and Others - Understood'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-993i.htm)
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about ANOTHER,
that another could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"L. Ron Hubbard and the Scientology Organizations
destroying [dominating, enslaving,
taking the decency or own life away from] people." LFBD
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down, Blow-Down
[Koos:] The E-meter Reads are on
the ugly Metternich-like [Richard Reiss-like] character
she is with, for having him as a Black Magic sex-partner, now.
[Auditor:]
"Her evil of wanting to be admired
for her evil intentions and ugliness."
[With the help of
sex and domination and
destroying others' awareness by direct spiritual force,
and
with the help of other Suppressive Persons
to admire her for how evil she is. (Note by Koos)]
[Koos:] Evil intentions and ugliness such as?
[Auditor:]
"- Running away from us,
- refusing to look at herself,
- pretending to be a normal person, LFBD
- the ugliness of doing as if
her evil intentions are good intentions,
- the ugliness of having sex with that ugly guy,
- doing as if he is not an ugly guy,
- preventing you from looking at her, LFBD
- saying she has the right not to take responsibility.
[By law, she actually has responsibility for her family
and her hiding will get her arrested,
and her refusal to care for her family
will get her convicted for up to three years in prison.
When conscience is lacking,
the Penal Code has to act as a substitute.]
[Auditor:] (more)
"- To want to attack you, Koos, for your looking at her,
- her intention to destroy evil people
even further than they already are,
- her intention to say that evil people can't be made decent."
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about ANOTHER,
that another could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"Metternich, LFBD
his hiding his evil intentions,
his overwhelming Jutta when she was Marie-Louise,
his intention to make her marry Napoleon,
his intention TO OVERWHELM OTHERS INTO ADMIRING HIM."
(see RI-559Ri 'Napoleon Bonaparte and Metternich - Two Suppressive Persons'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-559ri.htm)
[Koos:] The last mentioned intention
Jutta is, this very minute and since three months,
herself 'enjoying' to indulge in,
with the help of Black Magic sex.
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down, Blow-Down
[Auditor:]
"Her ugliness of being with that ugly guy."
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil ABOUT THAT,
that she could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"THAT she is there with him.
That she is hiding from us.
THAT she is admiring him for his ugliness.
THAT she has sex with him.
"But mainly,
that she is hiding from us, there.
That she is too big a coward to come home.
[Auditor:] (More to the previous question)
"Her having killed Flavia, her newborn daughter baby.
(see RI-472i 'How LRH defended his reputation in 1983' of 3 Feb 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-472i.htm)
Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up,
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
"And that Jutta is right now putting hate out towards you
while she knows very well that you are her best friend,
and even though she loves you, in actual fact."
(see RI-983i 'Jutta Blackmailed for Eternity by Richard Reiss' 17 Dec 97
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-983i.htm)
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
[Koos:] That is indeed a very indecent, evil intention.
[Auditor:]
"Her throwing hate at you,
so you don't stop her
being with that ugly guy,
having sex with him to get admiration
for her ugliness and evil [Black Magic projections of evil]
and in order to continue to be a coward.
WIDE
Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up's
and Tone-Arm Blow-Down Blow-Down's
"That she runs away from us
and hides with a guy to have sex with
IN ORDER TO make herself unaware
of her evil intentions
and of their consequences."
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down, Blow-Down
[Koos:] Then she must be having sex 24 hours a day!
(mental space lighter)
Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up
[Auditor:]
"Her having sex right now,
to make herself unaware of her evil intentions."
repeated
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down's
and Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up's
[Koos:] Which poses the question:
Has she become not only a whore
to the Metternich-type guy she is with,
and him paying her for doing that,
but is she doing it on a bigger scale, now,
with more men.
The sex and admiration game
to destroy awareness of ugliness and evil,
and thereby to strengthen it.
This is very ugly.
But it is going on.
Many people play this game,
but now we know WHY they are doing it:
To make their ugliness and evil "not felt" to themselves
- as long as they actually have sex
and are actually absorbing admiration,
they are unaware of some ugliness and some evil,
or let it flow as if it is not evil and not ugly
but "enjoyable energy"
(decency has lost all meaning here,
future and consequences are hardly important here) -
while continuing the ugliness and evil.
I wonder, when or whether Jutta will stop this
before her body is destroyed.
So this is another reason
why some people want to have a body.
To generate sexual admiration energy
in order to not feel the pressure
of their own evil or ugliness.
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"Her ATTACKING [shooting overwhelming spiritual energy at] you
for your looking at her.
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
and then Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up
"Her trying to deceive you [when you look at her]."
[So that you still don't see what she does,
but only what she wants you to think she does.
This is one of the big problems in telepathy
- spiritual criminals are doing NOTHING BUT
most cleverly and most forcefully lying and deceiving
in their thoughts.
Some of this I have already informed you about
with the RI-Bulletins.
The example session here in this RI-Bulletin,
certainly gives a solution to this problem:
THE SPIRITUAL CRIMINAL HAS,
WITH THIS PARTICULAR QUESTION, HERE,
NO CHOICE REALLY
BUT TO SAY THE TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HE THINKS.
(Note by Koos)]
repeated
Tone-Arm Blow-Down's
and Tone-Arm Blow-Up's
[Koos:] Like a whore.
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
and Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up
[Auditor:]
"But she also managed to project onto us how admirable she is
all the time when she was here at home,
without using sex in the physical universe for it.
F/N
"Deceiving you, Koos,
by making you feel and think
that 'it is harmless what she is doing', and
that 'the destruction she does "seem" to cause
can easily be handled'."
F/N
[Koos:] Deceiving me - such as?
[Auditor:]
"Your thinking
that you had Jutta['s evil intentions] under control,
when she was here,
that things were going towards improvement of her.
"And Jutta deceived you by trying to prevent
your looking in a light, uncomplicated, effective way, at her evil
- your wanting to look at her evil
WITHOUT you diving into her confusions
which she puts there in the first place
in order NOT to have her evil looked at,
in order to prevent your looking.
"She has done that very strongly and often, and still is
trying to prevent you
from LOOKING LIGHTLY AND EFFECTIVELY.
"In order to prevent you [from looking effectively],
she either
suffocates you with clouds of admiration-energy, so as
to make you feel comfortable with NOT looking
['no danger' - 'admiration equals no danger' - 'sex equals survival']
and to make you have a false image of her,
or she
attacks you heavily (becomes furious)
when you do try to look at it lightly and effectively.
"She then throws at you, thinks at you,
wants to trick you into accepting,
that
'when you look at it
lightly and effectively,
it CAN'T BE
that you are looking at her evil'."
[Koos:] Regarding her enforcing the idea
that "I CAN only see her evil
IF I am myself indecent."
It is nonsense, quite the contrary is true
- except that I would not see her evil
because I would not GET the idea
that someone wants to be that ugly and that insane
as she often wants to secretly be and secretly is.
[Like her stealing from our car two suitcases,
with E-meter and electronic equipment and expensive books,
while we are on holiday, and
putting them deep into a rubbish-container,
while I, Freya and Noel take a walk.
Jutta's motive was:
To see if SHE would feel shame for doing that to us:
If not, we would deserve it -
for not inviting her
to have the walk together with her,
but leaving her at the car and the tent.
And Jutta's
going with us to the police to report the theft,
and her
hiding from all and everyone
- while we were searching half the night and the morning
for whether a thief had thrown away
some of it that would not be of value to him -
hiding that she herself stole it.
(This was in Montelimar, France, 1 March 1997,
and we only discovered it now
because we started to suspect Jutta,
and we retraced our perceptions from that time
and so found out the truth,
and compared it with Jutta's
perceptions and decisions of that time.)]
I can look much better than an indecent person,
and I can evaluate, and remedy.
An indecent person would only
admire and support and encourage and 'use'
the evil he sees in another, and
I assume he would
not want to see the good intentions of another,
but make the evil of the other worse, and stronger.
[Koos:] I am looking now at
Jutta's intention, Jutta's trying to make evil stronger.
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
Her having sex with this ugly guy with that PURPOSE:
To make her own and his evil STRONGER,
to create and energize
a false viewpoint to destroy life with,
and force it onto others as 'strong', 'powerful', 'pleasant'.
[And that's why it feels like a sort of suicide
when she does this,
does it secretly of course
- too big a coward to admit openly THAT she does it -
"enjoying" her "strength" in hiding it,
to add the force of secrecy,
so that others don't know it, can't face it
and can't thereby de-intensify it.
I call it cowardice,
she calls it - SECRETLY -
"strength" of being so clever to hide it from others -
so clever ...to KEEP herself insane BY HIDING IT!]
Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up
That is what she and other criminals
are using sexual life-energy for:
To better destroy life with it.
It is very ugly, but that is what it is.
They absorb life-force
IN ORDER TO BETTER BE ABLE TO DESTROY LIFE, and
IN ORDER TO FEED AND INCREASE
THEIR INTENTION TO DESTROY LIFE.
That is very, very ugly.
Very dark, very, very much Hell, it is Black Magic.
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about ANOTHER,
that another could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"That this guy himself IS having sex with her.
That this guy is HELPING her to make her evil stronger.
"That - so Jutta wants it seen - makes him also
too evil to be made decent."
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down, Blow-Down
and Tone-Arm Blow-Up, Blow-Up, Blow-Up
[Koos:] I get now more reality on this
very evil, very snide guy she is with,
who "helps" her to forcefully be ugly and mean to herself
and let her 'enjoy' that,
so that she does not feel or face her own evil,
but finds it 'great' of herself.
[Auditor:]
"Jutta is, right now,
trying very hard to make us unaware
of this ugliness and evil of hers,
by making it uncomfortable to look at."
[Koos:] More?
[Auditor:]
"She is making us unaware of it,
trying to make us accept it as 'normal behavior',
so that WE do not consider
that she is too evil to be made decent by us.
[Note by Koos:
That's her usual working-mode:
Hide her evil and ugliness -
only THEN people will help her.
But as long as she hides it,
she can NEVER be helped or be made sane.
So she keeps herself eternally insane.
And Jutta most vehemently and viciously
tries to destroy Koos' decency, up to this very day,
by trying to make him, trying to force him to
accept as 'normal', 'unavoidable', 'to be left alone'
what she and other spiritual criminals are doing in life,
what they are doing to destroy life.]
[Auditor:]
"I feel very much Jutta considering
that - WHEN WE DO FIND IT OUT
[her present sex-evil game of Black Magic] -
THEN she is too evil to be made decent."
[Koos:] And "doomed for all eternity."
[Note by Koos:
This is of course very insane 'responsibility':
"As long as they don't find out that I stole the suitcases,
I did not do it to them.
I only wanted to see whether they would deserve it.
But they haven't found out who did it to them
- so actually, when I am with them, I did not do it."
Very, very indecent, very ugly, very non-survival logic,
as if one does not really cause harm to others
unless they see it.
Therefore also their practice of MAKING others unaware.]
(mental space lighter)
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about herself
that she could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"That she AGAIN Blew [secretly ran away] from us."
(see RI-958i 'Jutta: Running away is being dominated completely' 23 Aug 97
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-958i.htm)
[Koos:] What does Jutta consider so evil about ANOTHER,
that another could never be made decent?
[Auditor:]
"That that ugly guy is hiding her,
keeping her hidden on Jutta's request.
Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down
and F/N
continuous F/N
[Note by Koos:
Let's face it.
SHE goes to him to hide from everybody she knows are her friends.
SHE goes to him to hide from looking at herself.
SHE runs to him
away from helping Mankind and
away from using her knowledge and abilities to help you and Mankind.
SHE asks and gets his support in
destroying her own activities, and
trying to destroy Koos' activities and Mankind.
SHE demands of him to help her
drive herself more comfortably insane
- enforcing a false viewpoint on herself:
As if she is sane and
has no other 'responsibilities' than to destroy life -
every morning and every evening and every night.
SHE wants sex from him to do Black Magic with against Koos.
SHE asks him to give her money.
SHE wants him to tell her 'what an extremely ugly bastard' Koos is.
BUT she blames HIM that HE is too evil!]
[Auditor:]
"Yesterday night, late, Jutta was also hiding that:
That her hiding with that guy and using his sex
to be more powerful in projecting
destructive intentions towards you, Koos,
is too evil of HER to be made decent.
"This is
the Overt [non-survival act]
and
Jutta wanting to be slightly aware of it for a short moment,
[intentionally pretending to us to be ashamed of it,
to make it seem as if she would stop it now,
but she kept sex going again the next morning],
that we
picked up from Jutta yesterday night
(but we did not want to look at it further)
with, then, a 'Tone-Arm Blow-Down, Blow-Down, Blow-Down'."
Total session time: 1 hr 51 mins
Now that's facing life - as part of life is.
And if you want to be an Operating Spirit,
you have to be willing to face
such things being there and going on.
It is not a matter of being able to.
You are able to.
But it is a matter of being willing to,
and of actually doing the looking.
When you actually look,
you are beginning to find it easy to look,
it's not an effort anymore.
And when you have that,
then you are open
to experience an enormous amount
of real, enjoyable life,
real, enjoyable people
that you can give real joy,
because
now your attention and perception
is suddenly free to roam.
Then there are no "areas of life one does not look at", anymore.
There is no "I should not look at people", anymore.
There is no "I should not find out or be interested in people", anymore.
And so a VAST AREA OF LIFE OPENS UP FOR YOU
- TO REALLY ENJOY, TO REALLY BE ALIVE.
FOR YOU, this is the gift of life - take it.
FACE REAL LIFE - as I gave you an example of with the session above -
and so become free to perceive and find and enjoy life,
real life,
and not a pretended life
where nobody dares to look at anybody
for fear of what he might see.
Join me to be an Operating Spirit.
To really have LIFE and make it
REALLY, truly enjoyable and fun for all.
Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind
Copyright 1998 by Koos Nolst Trenite
Footnote:
See the 'Understanding Suppression Series'
at http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/usp.htm
* ('Auditor': Someone who carefully listens.)
[Definition of 'Auditing':
Confessional in response to given questions,
with the purpose to release emotional charge and aberrations.]
(see RI-541i 'Correct and Joyful Confessional Procedure - I' 20 Apr 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-541i.htm)
** (The abbreviations sF(small Fall), F(Fall), LF(Long Fall), LFBD(Long
Fall Blow Down) and F/N(Floating Needle) describe reactions on the
E-meter, indicating mental charge (sF, F, LF, LFBD), and release of
charge completed (F/N).
"LFBD-F/N" = truth found out. "ind" = indicated to the person.)
(see RI-687i 'Notes on E-meter use and Solo-Auditing' of 4 Sept 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-687i.htm)
*** [Definition of 'E-meter':
It simply measures normal electrical resistance of the body
as determined by the life-field that animates it,
(resistance in the area of about 1 kiloOhm to about 1000 kiloOhm)
measured by holding LARGE metal cans in each hand,
and
it (the E-meter) especially should be able to register
SUDDEN and also tiny changes in that resistance.
(see RI-610i 'Understanding the E-meter, correctly' of 26 June 1996
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-610i.htm)]
**** [Definition of 'TA-BD' (Tone Arm Blow-Down)
(The Tone Arm is the pointer on the E-meter(***)
showing the amount of electrical (Ohm) resistance
measured in the body.):
A 'Tone Arm Blow-Down' is a sudden, enormous DECREASE
of the body's resistance -
within a split second,
often hundred or two hundred kiloOhm less,
showing - in our case -
A CONSIDERABLE CHANGE
IN A VERY STRONG INTENTION TO DESTROY LIFE.
The opposite, a TA-BUP (Tone Arm Blow-Up)
indicates the force
of a very strong life-destroying intention
coming into play,
resulting in
a split second INCREASE of the body's resistance,
often by several hundred kiloOhms,
which, when faced
(as per RI-908i 'The Ostrich-factor - on facing evil...'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-908i.htm)
will again Blow-Down, and de-stimulate.
The phenomenon starts
with a very still, hardly changing E-meter Needle
indicating SOMETHING HIDDEN:
The very strong, life-destroying intention
is HIDDEN by the person looked at.
You ask him 'WHAT is hidden from the viewer (the Auditor)',
and you get an erratic needle-motion of the E-meter,
professionally called 'Dirty Needle',
and when asking further for what is hidden,
it develops usually into
a wild, slashing, back-and-forth motion of the needle,
professionally called a 'Rock Slam',
which then changes into, and should change into
'Tone Arm Blow-Ups and Blow-Downs'
which indicates
that the severely life-destroying intention
is really being looked at, faced, and being de-stimulated.
Sometimes the 'Rock Slam' phenomenon is skipped
and the 'Tone Arm Blow-Ups and Blow-Downs' come on immediately,
depending on
who does the viewing, who is the Auditor, and
how well the viewer, the Auditor, is willing to FACE
the extreme ugliness of the
severely life-destroying intention
of the person being viewed or being Audited, and
how strong the survival intentions
of the viewer (the Auditor) are,
how strongly HE can intend the person being viewed
to become decent
(see RI-988i 'Spiritual Criminal...versus Intending Decency'
http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-988i.htm).]
Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind
Copyright 1998 by Koos Nolst Trenite
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References (available also at the Library "http://Art-Org.com/"):
- About Sanity
RI-449i 'A Rule For Freedom' of 14 Jan 1996
RI-714i 'State of Sanity, Definition of' of 24 Oct 1996
RI-537i 'The Right to Demand Awareness' of 15 Apr 1996
RI-929i 'Simple Detection: "Sane or Insane?"' of 11 Sept 1997
RI-962i 'The Master Path to Life - Platonism understood' of 1 Nov 97
- About the Spiritual Criminal game (spiritual criminality)
RI-990i 'Spiritual Criminal Code of Honor - "Self-determinism"' 2 Jan 98
RI-987i 'Making a World of Spiritual Sanity and Freedom' of 26 Dec 1997
RI-988i 'Spiritual Criminal "Friendship" versus Intending Decency'
RI-985i 'Vicious Spiritual Evil of Richard Reiss Not Faced - VITAL VITAL'
RI-984i 'The Criminal Mind - Cowards Don't Dare Create Life - VITAL DATA'
- About Jutta (as applicable here)
RI-993i 'The Joy and Beauty of Destroying Self and Others - Understood'
RI-989i 'Marie-Louise's sex with Napoleon - Enforcing Ugly Admiration'
RI-986i 'Auditing Ron Hubbard - Jutta "not deserving" to expose him lying'
RI-983i 'Jutta Blackmailed for Eternity by Reiss, Also on Christmas?'
RI-981i 'Jutta RUNNING AWAY - from facing Reiss driving her insane' Dec 97
RI-979i 'Deserting Their Own Hero - Why (Jutta, Michael Jackson, etc.) Do'
RI-978i 'The Wall of Shame - Remedy of Hell, Jutta, Socrates, Black Magic'
RI-972Si 'Hidden but Executed Intentions of the paintress Jutta' 23 Nov 97
RI-969i 'Jutta: "See me Great, or I kill you" - The main evil' 3 Sept 97
RI-965i 'Jutta and Hubbard: "Dominate and Be Dominated!" - VITAL DATA'
RI-964i 'Jutta: With Koos, care for people - Without Koos, dominating...'
RI-960i 'Jutta: Why I destroyed Koos' Castle Project (1980) - Domination'
RI-958i 'Jutta: Running away is being dominated completely' of 23 Aug 1997
RI-954i 'Jutta: "Be with Koos - or let all be dominated by Scientology"'
RI-946i 'Jutta: "Don't face evil - Destroy Koos instead" - IV' 18 Aug 97
- About facing evil
RI-908i 'The Ostrich-factor - on facing evil or criminality' 16 Jul 97
RI-974i 'Truth about "Not putting attention on evil of others"' 27 Nov 97
RI-646i 'FACING those who are mean or dishonest' of 31 July 1996
RI-262i 'Creating despite Suppressive Persons' of 20 Aug 1995
RI-058Ri 'Fair Game Series - Treatment of Enemies' of 1 Jan 95
RI-487i 'Dialogue: On Enemies and Hostility' of 20 Feb 1996
RI-535i '"An Enemy of my Enemy is my Friend" = INSANE' 10 Apr 96
The 'Understanding Suppression Series'
at http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/usp.htm
RI-024i 'Definition of "Potential Trouble Source" - IMPORTANT' 19 Nov 94
RI-010i 'Confronting a Suppressive' of 12 Oct 1994
RI-444i 'The Practice of "SP-declares"' of 5 Jan 1996
- About Helping People, Care, Responsibility
RI-592i 'How To Look At People' of 5 June 1996
RI-734i 'Orienting Children' of 13 Nov 1996
RI-781BPI 'Raising Children - or Keeping Them Small?' of 16 Jan 1997
RI-631i 'Definition of "Woman"' of 12 July 1996
RI-629i 'Definition of "Care"' of 12 July 1996
RI-801i '"You can never leave" - The spiritual universe' of 14 Mar 1997
RI-785i 'On Not Remedying Disagreements - "Not Talking"' of 24 Jan 1997
RI-602i 'Definition of Power' of 20 June 1996
RI-705i 'Society Resurgence, Use of Rules' of 9 Oct 1996
RI-750i 'Crimes are not motivated by money' of 1 Dec 1996
- About RI-Bulletins
RI-380Ri 'Obtaining Truth from the RI-Bulletins' of 1 Nov 1995
RI-50RQi 'RI-xxxi series Archive - Content and Use' 28 Dec 94
Revised and Replaced on 6 March 1996
These references and other RI-Bulletins can well be obtained here - or
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